I was trying to calm myself. I know that all of this happened. I did. But I ignored it. It's my fault. I breathed deeply and flipped again.
That thing continued and went on again and again. I'm used to it. But that didn't stop me from living my day to day life. I continued being with Liose.
We hang out like usual. I feel at ease with him. The peace he gives me. The way he would comfort me without forcing me to answer his questions. He would be there. Always.
Time flew by. There's only a week before Christmas. Uncle Rac and Runa decided to go on a trip together so they left me at home. That works for me the best. They're not here. There's no abuse. Liose and I planned a meet up for Christmas. It's not a date, okay! Definitely not!
I did dressed up for it and arrived early. I really don't know what goes in his mind. He was there, so early again.
"Any tea? What's the agenda today?"
I asked. Yup, I'm excited. It's Christmas. I would always celebrate it alone but now someone wanted to celebrate it with me.
"Guess someone is excited. It's a movie night! And I heard there would be an illumination. Wanna go see it?"
"Oh, they finally did that. Yeah, sure! Let's see it! What movie is it?"
"A horror movie, that one with the board game. I heard you say that you wanted to see it. So I bought the tickets."
"You remembered that. Thanks!"
Maybe because Uncle Rac and Runa was not home. I felt cheerful and happy. I also saw Liose smiling as he saw me so happy and excited.
After the movie, we bought cake and walk at the illumination. I know that I hate this types of development but it won't hurt to enjoy things before I left that hell of a house.
While walking, I was so happy that I didn't get to hear what Liose whispered.
"Did you say anything? I was too excited, I couldn't focus."
"No. It's nothing"
Yeah. That week was amazing. You were so happy and excited about everything so I invited you to hang out for a whole week until New Year. Too bad you're dense.
Christmas and New Year are finished. And we went back to school. Same old days. Study, chores, abused at home, lunch with Liose, and Runa's bullying. That cycle continued everyday.
"Hey, Iya. What did you write on the career form?"
"I wrote work. I'm not planning to go on college. After I finished highschool, I will leave this village and work."
"Want me to accompany you. But I'll go to college. And we could live together!"
"No way! I would rather live alone."
He looked a little disappointed. But he still smiled. My cheeks flushed but he didn't see it.
"Really?"
He said sadly. Sigh.
"Fine! Do whatever you want. Just make sure my work won't get affected by then."
I said and he smiled again. Really, so easy.
It's now February and the spirit of love is here again. The class is ongoing and Liose is in practice. I glanced at the mirror and saw Liose, playing soccer. A lot of his fans were there, cheering. Do you guys doesn't have class? This is a school!
He glanced at me. He waved and smiled. I waved back and smiled at him. He was full of sweats. But that didn't stop the genes. D*mn! He looks so hot drenched in sweat.
Finally, the day had come. Valentine's. Liose and I didn't got the chance to meet until after school. He was flooded with love letters, chocolates, and gifts. He was busy avoiding girls and rejecting their confessions.
After school we met at the rooftop. He was tired.
"Here."
"..."
"What?"
"Nothing. Thank you!"
He said as he accepted the chocolate cake I made last night. I did gave it an effort. I worked so hard on it. He looks pleased and took a picture of it. As a memory he says.
Everything went fast. So fast that I forgot the day of my graduation. Finally. I will be able to leave. It was April. We were on the rooftop. He looks sad for someone who just graduated so I asked him.
"Anything wrong?"
"Actually, I want to tell you something."
"..."
"I'm planning to go back to my parents house. For a month okay. Then I'll be back. I promise."
He said sadly. I felt his sadness so I decided to smile.
"Just a month? I'll be fine for a year!"
"Seriouly, you. Thanks."
He went back to his parents house to take care of something and promised to write a letter. He would be back after a month.
A month, huh? When Liose was here, a month was nothing. But now that he's not here, it feels so long.
Two weeks flew by. No letters. Nothing. I'm starting to get worried and...annoyed.
What happened to that guy? Is he okay? Will he be back?
That thought scared me. I couldn't bear to think that he wouldn't come back. Where are you? You f*cking id*ot! Come back already. You f*cking promised.
May 21st. A day before my 18th birthday. He'll be back tomorrow. That's what he said. I was looking outside the window when I heard Runa's laugh.
"Are you still waiting for Liose? Dream on! He will not be back! See this!"
She said as she threw pieces of paper. It looks like letters. Torn piece by piece. I frowned at her and took a piece of it. My eyes widened as I saw Liose's name on it. All of this. Was his letter. I looked at Runa and shouted at her.
"What did you do!"
"Do you not have eyes? It's obvious. I took all his letter and ripped it to shreds!"
"How dare you!"
"I warned you, Iya? Oh, right. There's still more that you don't know. Here."
She said as she threw a photo. I catched it. And suddenly I heard something cracked. It was Liose. He was with a girl. Behind them was a banner that says 'congratulations on your engagement'.