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Today was the second day of the cultural festival, and there were a lot of visitors who came to the open house. That's why I'm so tired...
The cultural festival is over, and there is a short period of free time before all the guests have left and the after-party begins.
I was in the women's bathroom.
She tied her hair back into twin tails, then looked at the mirror hanging on the wall, moving her head from side to side to check herself.
"...Yeah, I'm cute. I'm definitely cute!"
I fixed my makeup before I did my hair. It was perfect.
After what that suspicious senior told me yesterday, I thought about it carefully when I got home.
I don't think everything I heard back then was true, but some of it made sense.
The moment that resonated with me the most was when he pointed out that I didn't have the courage to confess my feelings to Takuya-senpai and that I had a one-sided crush on him for a long time, and before I knew it, he had a girlfriend, and that I regretted it deep in my heart.
Shortly after I enrolled in this school, I happened to pass Takuya-senpai in the hallway. It was love at first sight.
It was our first meeting, but I don't think Takuya-senpai even noticed me.
But anyway, I've liked Takuya-senpai ever since then, so after asking around with my friends and finding out he was a member of the soccer club, I immediately joined the club as a manager.
He was a hard worker at soccer, and would often smile like an innocent child when he won a game, but frown with deep regret when he lost. I was so happy to be able to support such a senior from nearby.
Takuya-senpai was happy too, and that made me happy... As the days went by, it seemed like these days would continue forever, and it was so sad that these days would end that I couldn't confess my feelings.
But... I thought that Takuya-senpai was the only one for me, but that wasn't the case... I suddenly noticed rumors starting to spread that Shimotsuki Yui, Hazuki Yui-senpai, was dating Takuya-senpai...
The night I found out that it wasn't just a rumor, but the whole thing was true, I cried my eyes out in my room at home. I regretted not confessing my feelings. If it was going to make my heart ache this much, I thought it would have been better to confess and be rejected. I wished I could have a time machine.
But I had no choice but to accept the fact that Takuya-senpai was dating Yui-senpai... The next day, I had school, but my eyes were swollen from crying so much that I took the day off and slowly came to terms with it.
But that doesn't mean I gave up. Even after I found out he was dating Yui-senpai, my feelings for him didn't waver in the slightest. I still loved Takuya-senpai.
But the fact remains that my beloved Takuya-senpai has a girlfriend, so I decide to become a nasty woman hoping that they'll break up soon and wait for that time to come.
Dating isn't the goal, so even though I really didn't want Takuya-senpai to talk intimately with Yui-senpai or touch her body, I decided to wait.
In fact, there was another reason why I felt that way besides my unwillingness to give up on my love.
A friend who knew I liked Takuya-senpai told me that it might not work out. At first I thought she was just being considerate of me, but after hearing her story I realized that wasn't the case.
Yui-senpai is an actress. If he goes out with someone like that, naturally, people who know Yui will spot him and cause a commotion. This means that they can't go on dates like any other couple would. Even if they could, they'd be too worried about what other people think and wouldn't be able to concentrate on the date. And Yui-senpai has been active among adults since she was a child actor, while Takuya-senpai has been playing soccer with kids his age. They probably have different values.
My friend said so, and when I heard it, I thought it was true. I like Takuya-senpai, including his slightly childish side, but I wonder how Yui-senpai, who grew up surrounded by adults, sees him...
That's why I've been holding back until now. I thought that one day, my chance would come. This time, this time...
Meanwhile, Someya-senpai, whom I met today, told me that just as my friend and I thought, things aren't going well between the two. Yui-senpai and Takuya-senpai, who couldn't come to school because they were filming a movie that's coming out soon, are drifting apart.
Of course, it's possible that it's a lie. I mean, what's the point of a senior I don't even know deceiving me, but honestly, there's something twisted about that senior that I can't fully trust.
But I can agree with what you said.
If I don't act now, nothing will change. I don't think it's a bad idea to wait and see if Takuya-senpai and Yui-senpai will break up. But what if they don't? There's a chance that my predictions and those of my friends will turn out right, or maybe wrong.
However, if you confess and tell her that there is another girl who likes you besides Yui-senpai, it might increase your chances of breaking up with her.
The best case scenario would be that what Someya-senpai said was true, and that after I confessed, Takuya-senpai would break up with Yui-senpai and start dating me.
The worst case scenario would be that what Someya-senpai said was a lie, and I would confess and get rejected. But the fact would still remain that he confessed to me. That way, if things ever get strained between Takuya-senpai and Yui-senpai, he might remember me. Maybe he'd come to me.
The worst, worst thing would be if I didn't believe what Someya-senpai said and just ran away without confessing. Then even if he broke up with Yui-senpai, he might end up dating another girl other than me... I'm sure that's what would happen. There's someone even more wonderful than me, someone who doesn't have the courage to confess, with Takuya-senpai...
"So... I'm going to confess now. If you'll even notice me, even just a little..."
I've heard stories of people who get confessed to by someone they had no feelings for, and then start to notice them.
Alright, let's go!
Today I invited Takuya-senpai to join me during the school festival. He said he had something important to tell me during the after-party.
I've finished touching up my makeup. I'm heading to the meeting place with my senior...
--and.
"Oh, Mina. Why did you call me out here?"
It's Takuya-senpai.
I arrived earlier than the appointed time, but Takuya-senpai was already there. I had intended to arrive first and wait for him.
"Sorry I'm late."
"It's okay. I just came a little too early."
I called Takuya-senpai to the soccer club's locker room. Of course, it was locked today, so I had to wait until before school, but the other students were having fun at the after-party, so they wouldn't come to the soccer club's locker room, which was right next to the soccer field.
"So, why are we talking here?"
Takuya-senpai is defenseless, never expecting to be confessed to.
I quickly approached Takuya-senpai. He was surprised and stepped back, but there was a wall in the clubroom right behind him, so there was only so much he could move back. Soon I was unable to move, and I was so close to Takuya-senpai that I was practically pressed against him.
At the same time, I hear the sound of my heart beating loudly. The distant, excited voices I had heard just a moment ago are drowned out by this sound.
Being so close, I could clearly smell Takuya-senpai's scent, and his sturdy build, which is typical of a member of the sports club, made me feel uneasy.
I was embarrassed and had been looking away, but now I mustered up what little courage I had and met Takuya-senpai's gaze.
"Huh..."
As expected, Takuya-senpai has already guessed what I'm about to say.
Blood pulsates throughout my body.
I want to quit right now. I'm sure my feelings have already been conveyed, but I'm still too embarrassed to say it out loud.
...No, no. That's absolutely not okay. I never want to regret what I did that day again.
"Senpai... Takuya-senpai"
The night breeze was supposed to be cool, but it wasn't enough to cool my hot body. I was getting hotter and hotter from the inside.
"Oh, yeah..."
"Umm... Of course I know that you have a girlfriend. That you're dating Yui-senpai. But still, I really want to tell you something. So... please listen."
"Oh, I get it... I'll listen."
"I've always liked Takuya-senpai, even before I joined the soccer club. When I see him during club activities, my heart beats so fast, he's so cool and wonderful. That's why... even though I'm dating Yui-senpai, I can't give up on him. If it's okay with you, I'd like you to choose me over Yui-senpai."
I seemed to be moving unconsciously while I was confessing, and before I knew it, I was gripping Takuya-senpai's shirt tightly with both hands, as if to say that I would never let him go.
"...No, you say? Am I... no good enough?"
"..."
Takuya-senpai looks confused.
It seems that what Someya-senpai said wasn't a complete lie. But it still seems like I'm just one step away. If this keeps up...I'll get dumped.
-No way.
I don't want to be dumped. I don't want to lose this happiness, this gentle warmth I feel from my hands gripping his clothes. I don't want to be apart anymore. Even if it means throwing everything else away, I just... don't want to. I'm the one who deserves to be next to Takuya-senpai!!
With moist eyes, she locks eyes with Takuya-senpai.
Then, as if drawn into those eyes, he brought his face closer.
"Wait..."
Takuya-senpai was about to say something, but I didn't know what he was saying. I pressed my lips against his, defenselessly open ones.
"Hmm..."
My heart thumps and pulsates, taking over my entire body and making my core feel like it's on fire.初めてFirst Kiss
(Ahhh... I'm kissing Takuya-senpai...)
And then a few seconds.
I say to Takuya-senpai, whose lips have parted and whose eyes are wide with emotion.
A friend of mine had taught me that phrase as a trump card to use if I was ever turned down, but at the time I immediately replied that there was no way I could do that.
But now I felt the complete opposite. No matter what, I was overcome with the desire to never let go of Takuya-senpai.
"If you're okay with it, Takuya-senpai... I don't mind a relationship that's just physical. Even if we don't go out... I'll be happy just having you hold me. If anything happens, you can blame it all on me... I'm fine with being a convenient presence. But even so, that's fine... Please let me stay by your side."
I had this obsession that if I confessed and was rejected, I would never be able to be by his side again. It drove me crazy.
"...Hmm"
After a few seconds of staring at each other at close range.
This time, Takuya-senpai started kissing me. Then, he pried my mouth open and his tongue...