All my life I have always dreamt of a peaceful life but it seems life had other plans for me and it all started the day i resumed to school. I on the other hand resumed late than the other students, my processing into the school got delayed even though i started my preliminary academic from the same school.
I saw old friends, new faces and brand new everything, being in a totally new environment was a bit hard for me to adapt to. I got into the class, I was mesmerized with everything I saw, the power I once had became so tame, I was a level one junior all over again after heading a six year preliminary school but now I have to bow my head down once again after all I have achieved in my first six years of schooling. Khadija Sakinah, the first girl my eyes met, she looked funny, we were all looking funny because we were the new kids in the school and we were very young, she was very fair in complexion and she had this weird look when our eyes made contact, I had to make way and look for the possible seat near. The assembly bell rang and all the students in the school at that time gathered for the morning assembly, little by little, my classmates joined the assembly, I saw some who I knew were my juniors before but due to the entrance exams, we were all in the same class from now. The vice principal had recognized me in the assembly because he knew I was related to my sisters who were still in school as well, we three had two years interval each and that seemed the same way for our classes as well. The assembly concluded and every one of us headed to our classes, I entered the classroom and trust me, you don't wanna feel what I was feeling, As I stepped into the room, a strange, thick tension hung in the air. It pressed down on me, making it hard to breathe for a moment. The mix of new faces, loud voices, and the unfamiliar smell of fresh textbooks made my stomach churn, it almost made me puke but I had to keep it to myself. Luckily for me, I wasn't the only new kid, a girl had joined in from another school and at least I knew I had company, the class teacher of our class came in since she knew there were newbies, she had had to make us introduce ourselves and to be sincere, it felt odd because all my life I have never done it before, I started schooling in this school ever since I was two years old, so the introduction part was not needed from that stage of learning, after the introduction, I felt among the class but I wasn't the type that likes mingling with new people because my mindset is that if you wanna be friends with me, you have to study me before you do and I myself don't make friends hastily.
Fortunately, I made friends with the newbie that was with me as well, since we were both new, we got along pretty well, missing at least five to six weeks of academic activities, I had a lot on my plate and so did she, I actually got her name during her introduction, her name was Fatimah Hana, I on the other hand still had less much than her because my sisters had been helping me collect some of the notes that were written, I copied them during my stay at home. There was this noise about how late these people were, I couldn't actually point out who they were talking about but I was sure that they said they took the school transport means, they said there were twins amongst them and there was a boy as well. The wait was over for me as they entered through the classroom's door, I saw them, just as they said, twins and a boy as well, I didn't have enough time to scan through their faces well since I was busy with the class that was going on. After the teacher left the class, they started, there was this noise and I hated noise no matter how little it was, they were all teasing the students that just came not too long ago and it seemed like a daily routine since they were also not taking it to the wrong way, they all introduced us to them and by doing that they exchanged their names as well, the guy was Mustafa Rashid if I'm not wrong and the twins , their name seemed awkward because even their dad was a twin firstly was Hakeem Yasirah, she was the playful and average learner type and the other was Hakeem Nadira, this was the case of Abil and Qabil, they were wanted to fight over the most beautiful one to marry back then until Qabil killed Abil, Nadira was much more beautiful than Yasirah but that didn't put her behind the line of beauty of the class, she was a bit attracting and tempting even though she was a complete muslim, they got my name and they all tried to mingle with me but I didn't give off the communicative vibe, I liked being idle and it was fun to me that way.
I also saw old friends and juniors that pissed me off with their attitude during pre-school, Farida Nabila, Ibrahim Luqman and Rahim Samira, this were some of the ones I knew I could mingle with even when I didn't want to. Life in school wasn't as fun as I depicted or as we depicted, I would leave the class sometimes and talk to them and it was much more fun talking to them but what was very saddening was that no one must find me talking to them or else they'll call me a lunatic which was one of the words I hated to be called. Days passed, weeks passed and it seems I'm also a student of Taleem Comprehensive High School, the class seemed like a second family already, I made friends already and it seemed I was even attracted to Nadira because she gave off a vibe I loved, yes I just said it, her positivity around me was great and it felt like everything I wanted was always easy when she's around and I usually felt some stings when she gets in trouble and definitely gets flogged for it. I developed some certain connection to everyone in the class and the connection we both shared seemed to be the strongest, I could sense some feelings tingling in me whenever she arrives to school and I always seemed eager to always see her whenever she was late, this feeling of uncertainty was justified when one of them told me it was love, since I couldn't touch them all I could do was shout at them for saying such a thing, she was just a friend I tried to defend myself denying the fact about what they said which was actually true, I didn't know what to do and so I just kept living my life as I would but as I said before, I hadn't even mustered enough courage to talk to her, the pandemic was here, COVID-19 as they will call it, it made all of us stay at home for over three months or so and trust me it was torture to me because I missed all my classmates and I seemed to have missed her the most that was when I actually admitted that I had actually fell in love with her and I had no other choice to but to keep it to myself because I wasn't sure she would resume.
Life was unbearable without her even though I was just starting to know her, I didn't know how obvious it was until my sisters told me, I was shocked because I never uttered it to anyone and it seems they know me better than I think.