I head down to the kitchen and the staff straightens up seeing me, nothing I'm not used to considering I have been in the worst mood for the last two weeks, I turn to the cook standing there
Make me a fresh batch of cookies, make them perfect
The cook just stares at me dumb founded, it's reasonable. I don't like sweets,
C.. cookies?
She manages to get out
Yes cookies, do I have to repeat myself?
NO NO! I'll get right on it!
She quickly rushed to the pantry gathering eggs, flour and whatever they use to make cookies
PHEONIX'S POV
I'm left standing there in the empty room...I don't know what to do anymore...I mean I agreed to help him...but I still can't forget anything...my only brother...my only family...and he's dead because of me...I know internally it's not my fault...but I can't help thinking that way...if I had worked faster... didn't take so long...maybe Orion would still be alive...I just sit there blankly staring at nothing...or maybe not nothing...there's a chef's knife on the counter... looking so sharp...and so...so... beautiful...if I can just...
I take a step forward...and another one...and another until I'm basically standing over the knife looking at it with gears turning in my head...I look at the knife...and at my wrist and back at the knife...That's when the door opens and Sebastian walks in holding a nice hot plate of cookies, the smell immediately fills the room but I don't turn around...My gaze is fixed on that knife...
He sees it...he sees me...the knife...and that look in my eyes...he quickly puts the plate down and rushed forward putting the knife away in a drawer with a look on his face...panic...he figured out what I was going to do...
Pheonix...
He says as he gently holds both my shoulders making me look at him
What were you about to do...
He asks cautiously his hands shaking slightly...
Nothing...I was just...
I manage to croak out but it's bullshit and we both know it...
Pheonix look at me...
I look up my eyes blank
Baby please...talk to me... you're scaring me...
I.. it's nothing...I'm okay...I'm okay...
Maybe if I say it enough times it will actually become true...
You're not okay...talk to me please...
I feel tears building up...fast... before I could even stop them everything came pouring out
SEBASTIAN'S POV
I don't know whether to cry or scream or do both, that look in his eyes...if I had been even ten minutes late who knows what could have happened...tears fill his eyes and before I knew what was going on he collapsed on the floor sobbing
I'm sorry! I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen! I was desperate! I'm so so sorry! It's all my fault!
My heart drops and breaks at the same time, I quickly kneels and gather him in my arms as he sobs
Hey hey hey! Its okay...I forgive you! It's not your fault! None of it is your fault!
I try to reassure him the best I can but he just shakes his head and keeps apologizing over and over again, I don't know what to do to make him believe me
Please...I'm not mad at you... don't beat yourself over this...I don't want to see you cry...
Why don't you hate me...you said it yourself...the thing you hate the most is a liar! I lied to you why aren't you mad?
He sobs out and my heart breaks even more if that's even possible...he's right...the thing I hate the most is a liar...but I'm guessing it's not true after all...
I do...but now I know...you are an exception to that rule...yes I was angry that you lied to me...but anger isn't hatred...I know why you did it...I'm not mad anymore...so please...stop beating yourself over it...it's not your fault...
He shakes his head and keeps sobbing...I don't know what to do...
S.. Sebastian..
He says his voice weak and hoarse from all that crying..
Yes..yes I'm here...
I..I.. I'm s.. sorry...
He says as his eyes suddenly close and he passed out, my heart drops, I lunge to catch him right before his head hits the marble floor
PHEONIX!? HEY! CAN YOU HEAR ME?!
I'm getting more and more panicked by every second he doesn't wake up, his skin is cold and pale, I reach for my phone with shaking hands and call the medic