Sometimes I still see you walking around town.
All of the places that together, we have been...
A figment of my imagination, I'm coming down now.
The memories and reality are blended deep within.
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And I don't know
If I will ever be able
To sweep your cards off the table
And be stable
Enough to love again
I'm taught, like a cable.
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And I can't see myself
Ever being the happy me
I used to be
Before our worlds collided
Before that unity
Of you and me...
The colors are blended
Although it's ended.
I can hardly see
The forest for the trees
And all the time moving
Away from me.
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Away from you.
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And I had to
Just leave
Do for me what I could do
Or suffer more and more,
Waiting for my dreams to
Blossom to...
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It's been...1201 days
Since I walked away.
The scars are still
Painted across my face
And...
More than three years
And no "I'm sorry"
Has yet to come my way,
But what do I expect?
You'll never say
What you're not meant to say.
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The stages of separation will end here.
I'm no longer bitter.
No longer longing.
Like a drug, I had to fucking quit her.
I had to separate
The "love" from all the triggers...
Detachment is a bitch,
But holding on
Makes the pain bigger.
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I kept on chasing your shadow.
You kept on lighting a lantern...
I kept on thinking I mattered.
You kept repeating a pattern...
I tried to give you the world.
I tried to give you my Saturn...
You didn't want what I wanted.
Waited to watch it all shatter....
Waited to see it all scatter....
My bloody heart
On a platter...
Your darkened storms,
Or my light?
You only wanted the latter...
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But I digress.
I need to let it go.
Let it all go...
Unless you read this,
You will never know.
You will never know...
And you won't care,
Because you never did.