To My Ultimate Crush,
Okay, so, I'm finally writing this! I wanted to say a huge thank you for being so kind and gentlemanly the day I celebrated my birthday at the office.
You really made the day extra special. Thank you so much! I never imagined this day would come where I'd finally be able to talk to you, where I'd finally get the chance to face you.
Thanks also for the picture – it really meant a lot! And thank you for the follow back, hahaha! I promise I won't spam you with cat memes. Just kidding. Hahaha.
Now, let's address the elephant in the room, or rather, the girl who disappears faster than a ghost every time she sees you. Yes, that's me.
I'm so incredibly shy around you that I basically turn into a cartoon character trying to make a quick getaway. It's ridiculous, I know. And you've probably figured out by now that I have a bit of a crush on you. It's so obvious, right?!?! Hahahaha.
I'm trying to work on it, I promise! One day, I'll actually manage to say "hi" to you without being so shy. Hopefully, I will!
But seriously, you've been a huge inspiration to me, even though you probably have no clue. You just have this… I don't know… kind of magic. Okay, I'll stop before I get too cheesy. Hahahaha.
The thing is, this isn't a declaration of undying love asking if we can be more than whatever we are right now. Nope! Definitely not.
What I'm hoping for is your friendship. I genuinely admire you as a person, as a friend, and I'd love to get to know you better as a friend. My ultimate goal is to be able to have a normal conversation with you without my brain shutting off or my feet running away on their own because I suddenly panic. Hahahaha.
Remember when you asked if the perfume was from me? OMG, I almost disappeared from sheer awkwardness! I was so nervous! But yes, again, it was from me. I'm a bit of a giver, and I really hope you like it. I just really like giving gifts to those I admire. I wanted to do something nice. I agonized over which scent to choose. I even asked my guy friend because I was worried you might not like it.
I might only know your name, but you have this uncanny ability to make my day a little brighter. At first, I was just curious about who you were. And honestly, it was your eyes that made me admire you… Okay, okay, I'll stop now before I sound really creepy! Sorry!
And speaking of awkward encounters… Remember that time we rode the jeep together with an officemate? My heart was doing the samba, the cha-cha, and the Macarena all at once! Hahaha.
Honestly, I could barely breathe that time! I swear, I think I could only breathe once we got off the jeep. There was the time we were in the elevator together. I was so nervous. I thought my knees were going to give out. My goodness! And all those times I waved at you when you weren't looking! Hahaha. There was even a time when my friend asked me to stand up because you were coming, I think you were about to leave. I wasn't even sure if you saw me, but I panicked and hid away! I was so shy, thinking, "I hope he didn't see me! This is so embarrassing!"
I'm so sorry if I acted like a total kid that day, last Monday. It's just that you're the first guy I've ever really had a crush on, so my brain kind of went on vacation. I'm really sorry.
People may think or assume that I'm after something more than friendship. But I genuinely just want to be your friend. Someone I can talk to or grab a coffee with sometimes. Someone I can finally say "hi" to without running away or waving frantically when you're not looking. I want to be transparent about what I feel and what I'm hoping for.
I'm truly thankful, and I really hope you like the perfume. I really hope that we can be friends. Promise, just friendship. Nothing else, nothing more.
So, what do you say? Want to take a chance on a slightly awkward but genuinely appreciative friend who is working on not running away or having heart palpitations? I hope you say yes.
Fingers crossed! Crossed fingers!
From Me :)