Anne had no idea when she fell asleep last night, all she knew was that she had cried into her pillow and she had blamed herself immensely.
She had blamed herself for bringing emotion into something that was simply transactional, she had blamed herself for wanting, needing and hurting now that it was gone, she blamed herself for feeling jealous and breaking the little fantasy between them that she could have indulged in a while longer.
It was all her fault.
When she woke up in the morning, she had a headache which wasn't at all a surprise after all the tears she had shed last night.
But would crying now mean she wouldn't have to cry again later? Was she right to have broken the illusion now rather than later?
Seven months or more she would have to continue being here, seeing him everyday, would they be like strangers now, seeing each other and not speaking to one another, would it be a strict partnership between them from now on?
