Day 003
Let's clear up a few misconceptions about living in a VR 24/7. You do not have complete control over your senses. You do not have a body or at least not a body that will fully obey you but you can influence the objects around you with an almost magic of sorts. You can fly as long as you have the capacity to imagine it. I would not recommend it as most people can't control it and its ends messily and painfully, though you can't die.
Even having written this paragraph is a struggle now, and it has taken 3 days to reach this point. It is a battle to snatch moments of lucidity, to be able to note down a few characters, or if I'm lucky, a few words before my mind is not my own anymore and I'm lost to a rush of data and dreams.
Day 007
I have two thought exercises to help you better visualize the experience in a VR.
The first is to think of your brain as a blob of jelly sitting in a suit made out of your body and hallucinating reality. Now, instead of giving it the suit of your body to interact with reality you have given it powers to interact with the virtual world instead. However, without a body you have no sense of time. You could learn all of physics within the space of an hour and yet barely write two words even after 7 hours. This is because interacting with pure data, 1s and 0s, is a breeze. Getting a rush of happiness or pain is as easy as a flick of a thought. But, experiencing art, remembering how the breeze used to brush on your cheek or trying to do anything creative, make an impact on the real world by imitating the motions required by a real body, is-
Day 012
Climate change has rendered thoe countries near the equator unliveable. Many other areas of the earth are rampaged by deatlhy natural isasters.. The remaining save havens are overcrowded and affording resources is only an option for the rich. The option to live in VR is relatively cheap as you only barley have to consume through feeding tubes and can even live underground in disaster prone regions. My body is due to arrive in Africs today
Day 018
I have mugged up whatt to write up till here practiced in VR while I was still in the real world writing. From now on I won't have the privilidge of having it easy by wrote learned forced in memoryt hrough brute force.
Day 025
Carlyle's home is gone. At first she tried to live in house she imagined every day staying real because of effort she put in to imagine it even among the whirlwind of data keeping her sanity. IT was our pride too We used to flock there. But today, it was gone. A few of us we kne win real world formed a link and stramed some stars and their palnets that we hadn't yet memorized. A friend tried to share a story she knew in the real world but it was too much effort to try to imagine it. Just the data enough was not enough to form experience of reality and we gave ourselfes hormones of sadness as we realised that we couldntexperience stories anumore
Day 033
there is a place friend circle avoids everyone avoids it is the older resi ones . who work now to for their feed tube and even older ones beyond that. there is a general sense that smwhere fear graveyard of those who die but their brains rem saty. I tryn to go th
Day 042
A lot of people here giving up. They just do tasks sent by real world. They sort data, sip some dopamine, sort data but no matter how much they do they could do years worth work in one hour but work never stop.. No satisfaction, no relief, no es cape. I decide to suspend grammar - too much work. exhausted. . I forge where I stop last.
Day 063
The ebbing fold of city dimmings unravel in the hush of stretched encounters. The somthing of before drifts like hum of what never was. The now forgets, the before dissolves, the aftter unfounds itself. And the night waits, waits, waits
Day 075
No onés listening- It"s hard to do both at one- in the real world anyways- listening to these people and writing- they dont know how to talk anymore they redundant talk- I'm giving up