I cried quietly, the sound lost in the spray. I was alone, just like I asked even when that was the last thing I ever wanted.
Right now, it felt no different from drowning.
I got under the shower again. This time, I took off my clothes, my body trembling, but not from the cold of the water.
I felt feverish... Red and hazy.
The cold water was doing nothing but making my skin feel raw, a sharp contrast to the fire spreading over my body. It got to the point where the water felt warm.
I looked at the relentless erection of my dick. It was throbbing... it was aching.
I reached down, my fingers trembling as I tried to touch myself, desperate for any kind of release.
I stroked my dick, jerking off with a clumsy, frantic pace, but it felt hollow. It wasn't like the way they did it.
There was no heat from another body, no heavy scent of an Alpha claiming me, no grounding weight. It just felt like I was only hurting myself.
