He had also thought many times, if he were in the emperor's position at that time, what choices would he make?
Perhaps he wouldn't be so heartless, as decisive to the point of being cruel, but in the end, he would most likely still prioritize the state and the bigger picture.
But for all the reasons in the world, speaking from personal feelings, he still wanted to hear a "sorry". From the age of ten, he was forced to grow up, to take on responsibilities alone, to face innumerable difficulties by himself. He was suddenly transformed from a child into a strong man by life's adversity, and it was his own father who forcibly took away the remaining years of his youth.
Because he once had the best, he had the confidence to "act spoiled due to favor", seeking comfort in such a childish way.
Just as he previously didn't hesitate to attack with the most vicious words, now, all that had accumulated over the years poured out entirely, yet it also brought relief.
