Back then, when he wanted to marry Shi Nuan, Shi Nuan initially refused. If it weren't for the circumstances forcing her, she probably wouldn't have agreed.
And after she agreed, she also understood what she would have to face in the future.
But at that time she was not afraid, because she planned to eventually leave Song Yansheng.
The relationship between the two was just mutual use. Maybe after she finishes what she wants to do and leaves happily, the outside world would still be unaware of her connection with Song Yansheng!
So now, why is she afraid?
Because her thoughts have changed, she no longer thinks about leaving him. She wants to be with him for a lifetime, wants to spend the decades of her life bound to him, Song Yansheng.
And decades, that seems swift but in reality is a long time, and her relationship with him naturally cannot be hidden.
So she's afraid, scared, and timid...
However, she hasn't retreated. She's been steadfastly staying with him, hasn't she?
