I felt him before he even arrived. My new mana pool, regeneration, and connection to mana made my perception through it reach new peaks. I am constantly receiving information from all across the universe, mana whispering in my arms, telling me about dangers, things I should and shouldn't know. My Perception was constantly increasing because of a forced overuse of my senses; if I hadn't had full control over every single part of my body, I would have blood coming out of my mouth, eyes, and ears.
I had already turned to where I knew he would come out, and there he was, Yao, the worry on his face was clear, but well hidden by a veil of experience gained through centuries.
" You are losing your humanity."
He had said calmly, though, that by how he destroyed the meteors around us, he must have been worried.
Yes, you heard that right, we are currently in space, and I am training several of my resistance skills in an attempt to create a universal resistance skill. Though my firepower is rapidly increasing, I can't say the same for my survivability. Being partially immortal as long as mana exists in me wasn't enough; the last time I had my body destroyed, and had nearly died because of that, fuck that.
" I could lose way more than that. I am ready to sacrifice something as insignificant as my humanity for the ones I care about."
" But you even care about them anymore if you were to stop being human."
" I will, what makes me love them is not my humanity, my humanity is what makes me worry for their future, my humanity is what gives me anxiety every single time someone even dares utter their name, my humanity is what makes me weak."
" It also is what brought you here, what made you save them, what made you heal Mary by yourself, help Laura with her traumas, what convinced me to see you as my son."
I froze for a fraction of a second, the mana of the universe sharing my emotions and causing the universe to stop with me. The sensation soon ended, and I made the mana in the air disperse into its natural forms, making the oppressive aura around me disappear.
" They haven't seen you in days, while they are used to it, they are getting worried with each passing second."
It had been days? My focus skill was starting to make me ignore the passing of time more and more. Now that food was unnecessary, my stamina was almost endless, and my mind capable of infinite things, my focus had brought me to realms of absolute ignorance of everything except for the things I wished to understand.
Was my near-death experience affecting me that much that I hadn't even realized it?
"... How do you stop worrying about the future? When you know all of this, how can you not just... worry, get angry, scared? I have something that stops me from being anxious, and I still am anxious."
" You learn to live with it, being courageous isn't about not feeling fear-"
" It's about fighting it, I know."
" It's not that either, someone fighting their fears won't live long enough to fight all of them, normal people do not have the power to fight their fears, they can't stop their sons and parents from dying because of an accident, they can't stop the impending doom of time, they can't stop the crash of an economy they no power over, they learn to adapt, to live with the fear and learn to use fears as a fuel to push foreward even trough the darkest moments of their fears, being scared isn't about freezing, or fighting, it's about living."
I felt it, some of my parallel minds telling me to simply continue grinding until you were able to simply crush every single being in this universe. I felt the cold sensation of absolute slowly try to bring me back to training, and I had had enough.
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Fusing skills: Focus, Parallel Thoughts, Mind Foretress
Skills effects have increased because of other factors.
New Skills: Mind of the Absolute Lv. 1
Mind of the Absolute Lv. 1
Seeking knowledge and power, you had reached a point of no return, a crossroads reached by hundreds of beings, beings that either died in their research or reached pinnacles of power that no other beings will ever be able to reach, but while others were blinded by knowledge, power, or death, you pushed beyond such mortal concepts, brining your mind to a realm of absolute connection and absolute detachment from everything and nothing at the same time.
Effect: Every bonus that increases your intelligence, focus, resistance against mental status effects, and other factors will be multiplied by (5+ Lv/10 with a minimum of 1) times. Your mind can be split into (2^Lv. (at level 100, he will have 1267650600228229401496703205376 minds ))
Because of the presence of the Mind of the Absolute and the Gamer's Mind, the hidden status effect Staring the void has been blocked.
+50 Int and Wis for resisting the call.
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I felt the effect of my skills receded as new clarity filled my being, emotions I had almost lost coming back to me as a parasite that had tried to take control of my mind was erased from existence.
My eyes gained back their light, my body once again felt full of life, my mind a place of wonder and infinite potential; it made me remember how I felt when I had started training for the first time and had no idea what I was doing.
I opened my eyes, a clear smile on my face as I looked at Yao.
" Should we stop for ice cream first?"
" That is a wonderful idea."
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