JUDE
"You are more than enough to me."
"Then why?"
He doesn't have to clarify. I know what he means.
Why won't I let myself be fully with him now and in the future? Why do I keep rejecting him, hurting him every chance I get, when I tell him I love him in the same breath?
"Because I am fucked up. Because I am insecure, not good at dealing with my own feelings, and I end up hurting the one I love the most. I wish I had something more, but …" I look at my trembling fingers.
"That's all I have. The truth is, because I am fucked up."
"I am fucked up too. We are all fucked up and yet I don't …"
I don't tell you, I won't say yes to you if I ask you to marry me.
