How the fuck do I face him? I acted like a high school love freak, I couldn't go to him and discuss my revenge plan, when I was begging for attention yesterday. CASSANDRA!!!! I really need to be scolded.
He would most probably try to use last night against me if I do go to him for help, so I'd rather swallow my shame and ask Andrew for help. That way my mind and head will be clear and my body won't betray me and beg to be touched. Yes! That's a great plan, I'll stay over at Andrew's for a while. But, I need to let Nikolai know I'm leaving.
So I jumped right off the bed and picked up my toothbrush and toothpaste. After adding a generous amount to my brush, I began washing a bit more aggressively than normal. I spit it out, staring at my figure in the mirror. I would give anything right now to change the wheel of time, but for now, I'll hold the bull by the horns.
