The walk back to my apartment was awkward, I kept checking my phone back and forth like I was awaiting an important email to drift me all away from this mess, well 'my mess' . As much I hated it, eventually I have to face the truth, but how when I'm stuck between two people I really care about....
"Fuck I sound selfish and stupid right now", I mumbled to myself in the quiet open space.
Brook gave me quick glance before sighing out loud.
"He loves you more than that ....playboy toy", she whispered the last part but I heard her clearly.
I stopped walking and rubbed the back of my neck.
"I know, I know but right now I need a moment to think okay?"
I stared at my phone for awhile, contemplating on what I should do about this entire crises I placed upon myself. 'fuck, fuck my life, like why can't things be easy, like why can't just have..', that's when a lightbulb switched on in my thoughts.
"Sage...I know that look", Brook stared at me suspiciously. "What devilish thoughts are you having right now, huh?", she folded her arms while tilting her head to the right side like a curious kid would when they are puzzled by something.
"What if I don't have to choose, what if I could just...", I bit my thumbnail, trying to form the right words in my mind so she could better understand the idea when I say out loud for her and I don't seem crazy.
"Spit it out.."
"I just pick them both", I looked around to check if nobody heard my confession.
Brook kept quiet and just gave me a cold glare. I felt a cold chill run down my spine, 'Did I fuck it up?' I thought to myself while blankly staring back into her brown eyes which seemed to no longer glow but gave off cold vibes. The people around us just passed by, minding their own busy and we seemed to not exist in their world.
"Brook??", I waved my hand across her face to see if she's still with us.
I few minutes go by, dead silence from her side which was making me worry.
She took a few steps back away from me as if I was all up in her face and just sighed again, but this time she folded her arms.
"You're FUCKEN insane..are you hearing the bullshit you just said right now"
'I fucken knew it. ohh I wish I could just disappear'
"No..no..no think about it for a second, you said he loves right? and unfortunately I just happened to fall for someone else...which is not my fault"
"Let's get back to your apartment so you can explain this shit to me properly", she said as she grabbed my hand.
The walk back was short since she was speed-walking us to my place. I couldn't even catch my breath by how fast we were walk, basically dragging me all the way from the random store till my place. We finally reached my door and I unlocked it before rushing to the couch to have a sit and catch my breath.
I sighed out loudly "Fuck Brook, you just had to drag me like that...I didn't know you have so much stamina in you"
"Call Caleb", she bluntly stated while staring at my phone in my hand.
"Wh..wha..what...why???", I gave her a confused glance before staring at my phone too.
It literally came out of nowhere, why is he even mentioned, I thought she hated his guts.
"Just call him, I'll do the talking", she reached her hand out, the other hand on her waist.
I hesitated for a moment before unlocking my phone and handing to her. 'What in the hell is she planning this time', I thought to myself, watching her slowing dial his number with ease, as if she has done this a million times.
"Hello?.....yes we need to talk...", said brook while leaving the living area and going to the kitchen counter to lean over it. I couldn't hear everything being said because of the distance and also my nerves froze me in one spot on the couch. It then dawned me that she just called him after she confirmed the time of arrival. 'I'm so fucked right now, why am I even scared, It's just Caleb, not a stranger'
I was trying to console myself but my body was betraying me by the way my heart was racing. I didn't know what her plan is but maybe things can finally make some sense in my life. I sighed, anxious as fuck because he's on his way.
Brook pulled me out of thoughts by clearing her throat loudly. I slowly blinked and gave her a concerned look,"He's on his way...technically in an hour", she said. "better start looking alive", she stared at my room,suggesting I get dressed.
I checked myself out first, "What?, I'm not gonna change.....I don't even know what's going on"
She moved from the kitchen and dragged me to my room. "Trust me on this one", she commented while forcing me, yet again to doing something I didn't consent to but I guess you don't need that if you guys are besties.
Sitting crisscrossed on the bed, I watched her go through my messy pile of clothes, waiting for a responsible adult 'Me', to pack everything and put them away. Brook kept mumbling to herself, unsure what to pick out.
"Uhhhmm, no...not this one", she threw my favourite pair of jeans away before grabbing a two piece of lululemon, pink too and smiled to herself.
"Perfect, now start changing there's no time. We need to fix your hair too", she threw them on my face.
"I don't understand, what's happening..."
"Like I said, trust me and you won't regret it", she reached out her pinky.
"Pinky promise?"
"Fine, and this is giving kid vibes", I took out my pinky and laughed to myself because It reminded me of my younger self.
Suddenly a familiar sound echoed from the living room, a loud knocking on the door. We both froze and wondered who it could be because we are not expecting Caleb until an hour later. Now who could be at the door right now?