You push yourself off the bed and then slowly towards your closet. You take a deep breath, staring at the closet door before reaching it and opening it. You push through your clothes to find something to wear. You stop at a nice pretty black dress. You look at it more, questioning if this dress has always been here. You sigh, pulling it out of the closet and placing it on the bed. You stand still staring down at the dress.
After taking a shower, you put the dress on.
You stand in front of the mirror in the bathroom. You touch your hair, examining it in the mirror. You tilt your head, watching all the hair fall to the side. You take a deep breath and slowly walk out the bathroom towards your bedroom. You grab a hair clip from your dresser and pull your hair back with the hair clip. You can't remember the last time you dressed up nicely.
You look down at your dresser to close it but then pause when you see a small purse in the drawer. You furrow your eyebrows confused to whose purse it was. You pick it up and open it. It has makeup in it. Mascara, blush, lipstick... lip gloss, and some eye shadow. This must be Hikari's. You stare at it thinking about what Izana said and then sigh a bit, staring out your bedroom door. You walk towards the bathroom and look back in the mirror, holding the makeup in your hand.
You pull out the eyeliner and hold it tightly in your hand. Yuki never really wears makeup but she knows a few things. You pull the eyeliner towards your eye and begin to apply it. You then apply mascara, eyeshadow and blush. Lastly you add a natural but pinkish color on your lips by applying a bit of lipstick and lip gloss. You stare at yourself in the mirror. You look very different.
"Is this too much?" You quietly say to yourself. You walk out the bathroom and close the purse, softly placing it back in the drawer. Your eyes widen when your phone starts vibrating on the bed. You walk towards it and pick it up. The contact says Izana. You hold it up towards your face.
"Hello?" You softly say.
"Hi... I'm waiting outside." He replies. He sounds happy. You slowly nod and hang up. You throw your phone onto the bed and turn away, walking down the stairs. You look up towards the door of the bakery to see him standing outside waiting. He can't see you since the bakery is dark and it's also dark outside. You pull open the door and step out. Izana backs away a bit to see you better. His eyes widen when he sees you.
"Yu-ki..."
"Izana." You stare back up at him, a soft smile on your face. He smiles back.
"You look really... pretty."
"You think?" You smile more and he nods. He holds his hand out for you to hold it. You look at his hand and slowly reach for it. He holds onto your hand tightly and guides you along with him.
After walking a bit, you both arrive at a nice restaurant. You look around feeling kind of shocked that you are even there. Not just that but you look at Izana, surprised that he was able to afford something like this.
"I made a reservation." He softly says. The waiter nods and walks off for a bit. You look at the decoration and the people there. You take a deep breath, glad that you applied makeup and actually decided to wear something nice. Otherwise, if you hadn't you would have really stuck out.
The waiter comes back and directs you two to a booth in the back. She smiles and hands you two menus. She turns away and walks off. You look down at the menus confused on to why there was four of them. Not just that but why is Izana sitting beside you and not across from you. You tilt your head a bit, looking at him. He notices you looking and smiles as he turns his head and looks back at you.
"Is someone else coming?" You ask. He slowly nods.
"A friend of mine." He softly says.
"A friend?" You look at him confused. He nods.
"Izana." Someone says from beside him. You furrow your eyebrows when you don't feel familiarity in their voice. A guy stops at your table. He's smiling at Izana and then his eyes slowly drift towards yours. You look at him feeling familiar but unfamiliar at the same time. He has a red eye and a very light grey eye. He also has a huge scar that went from one side of his forehead and down the other side of his face, scaring above his grey eye.
"Yuki... this is my friend." Izana motions to him. His friend bows a bit and smiles at you.
"My name is Kakucho." He replies.
"Kakucho." You softly say. A girl appears next to him. You tilt your head in confusion.
"Hi!" She bubbles.
"Hi."
"This is my friend also. Her name is Megumi." Kakucho softly says.
"Nice to meet you." She says with a smile on her face.
"Nice to meet you." You reply. They both sit down across from you. Kakucho smiles at you still. You look at him feeling a bit uneasy.
"So Yuki... I've heard a lot about you." He smiles.
"You have?" You question.
"Mhm." He nods. "Izana talks about you often." He smiles. You look at Izana who is looking down at the menu in front of him.
"Oh..."
"Do you think they would let me get alchohol...?" Izana asks.
"You aren't even of age yet." Kakucho sighs. Izana smiles and rests his head on his hand.
"Almost of age..." He smiles.
"So Yuki... what year are you?" Kakucho questions. You look at him and then down at the table.
"I'm supposed to be a second year in high school."
"Supposed to be?" He looks at you confused.
"I got expelled..."
"Expelled?" He smiles and looks at Izana. Izana looks back at you. "You plan on going back to high school?" He asks. You nod. He smiles and nods too.
"Let's order... I didn't just invite everyone here to just chat." Izana says smiling at you. You look at him and nod.
The rest of that dinner went on for over an hour. Kakucho kept asking questions, mostly you and him spoke. Megumi stayed quiet in the corner and Izana was also quiet too. After finishing your meal, Izana said he will pay and for you three to wait outside for him. You stand outside looking around. It was drizzling.
"Dang... it's raining." Kakucho says with one hand in his pocket and the other sticking out from the shade. "Hold on... I'll be right back." Kakucho walks back into the restaurant. You watch as he does. You turn your head and look back out towards the rain.
"..." You notice someone standing closer to you. You look in their direction. It's Megumi. You relax your eyes and look forward.
"You know... When I first met Kakucho... I wondered how he was able to afford such things..."
"Huh?" You look at her confused. She looks at you and takes a deep breath.
"Look at the place we are... and the clothes they wear..."
"Okay?"
"They look like they have a lot of money... right?" She asks. You nod. "That's what I meant." She says looking back out into the distance. "They look so young... actually they are a lot younger than me."
"Huh? How old are you?" You ask.
"Twenty five." She answers in a low tone. Your eyes widen. "Yep... I may not look that old... I look younger then my actual age... but my body is more mature. A lot of young men like that."
"..."
"I usually like to be around the younger ones. They are more wild-ly interesting to be around. Especially in bed. But- they are also mentally young too. So they cling onto people like me more."
You furrow your eyebrows to her words. You can't tell if what she's saying is supposed to make sense. Actually, a lot of what she's saying makes you feel quite uncomfortable.
"I end up finding kids like them. They are young and have a lot of money... status too. But they aren't some CEO to a business... or even a kid with old money. They have this money because they are delinquents."
"Delinquents?" You question.
"Mhm... Didn't you know that?" She asks. You shake your head. "Oh I would had thought you did... especially since the one you're with is the leader of that gang... Tenjik something."
"Tenjiku?" You question. She nods. You furrow your eyebrows to what she said. "How did you know that?" You ask.
"Kakucho told me." She replies. You stare at her. She was being sincere. You look in front of you. Staring at the rain.
Both Kakucho and Izana walk out. Izana has a blank look in his eyes and Kakucho has an awkward smile.
"Did dinner cost a lot?" Kakucho asks. "I can pay you back."
"No... it's fine." Izana blankly says.
"Where are we going to next?" Megumi bubbles. You furrow your eyes at Megumi's sudden change of tone.
"Uh... that's up to Izana." Kakucho calmly says. Izana stares at you a bit and then puts his hands in his pockets.
"Do you like ice cream?" He asks. You nod. "Then let's get some ice cream."
You stand at the railing, staring out into the water. It has stopped drizzling, but the breeze makes you feel a bit chilly. Izana was inside the place, buying the ice cream and Megumi and Kakucho are sitting at the tables outside the restaurant. You stare at the water. The moon shines into the water a bit and so does the lights from the buildings. The conversation you had with Megumi swirls into your head. You furrow your eyebrows to the fact that Izana has been keeping the secret of his identity from you. But why is that a surprise... everyone has been doing that to you lately.
"Hey..." A voice says from beside you. You look towards that voice to see Kakucho.
"Hi." You softly reply, looking back out at the water.
"Are you okay?" He asks. You slowly nod. He leans against the railing and looks at the water too.
"Mhm..."
"You sure? You can sit with me and Megumi while you waited for Izana to come back." He softly says.
"Kakucho."
"Hm?"
"Is Izana the leader of Tenjiku?" You ask, not staring at him but glaring at the water. Kakucho goes quiet and you repeat your question. "Is Izana the leader of Tenjiku?"
"Yes."
"Mmm..."
"I know Izana has probably kept that secret from you but... please don't treat him any differently." Kakucho softly says.
"You're saying I should pretend he didn't lie to me?" You ask. Kakucho looks at you, unable to respond. He relaxes his eyes and sighs.
"No... I'm not. I just want you to understand him more."
"Understand him more? It feels like he has been using me..." You quietly say. "No wonder he tried to be friends with me... It's because I had a close connection to Mikey."
"..."
"You can't even deny that... That's the only reason why he's talking to me." You sigh. You push yourself from the railing and turn away. "Tell Izana that I'm going home."
"Wait... Yuki- Don't. I know it was wrong that he left you in the dark... that he- didn't tell you but he really cares about you. I never heard him talk so passionately about someone before. He sounds happier when he talks about you."
"..." You stand still listening to him.
"I wanted to meet you because... I feel like you can save my friend. I want him to be happier, and you make him happier. Clearly I'm not enough... I can't even do that myself..." He says in a sad tone. "Please... don't- don't leave like this... I mean at least let him explain."
"... If we had this conversation a few months ago then I probably would stick around and given him a chance... but at this point..." You clench your fists. "I just don't have the heart to suck it up and withstand this." You frown and look forward. "I'm too tired... so Imma just go home... I'm sorry Kakucho." You softly say.
"..."
You grab the door of the bakery and push it open, slowly walking in and preparing to lock the bakery door. But someone quickly pushes the door open. You stumble back a bit. You furrow your eyebrows and turn towards the light, turning it on. You see a pink flushed out Izana, panting a bit in front of you.
"What are you doing..." You say in a stern tone.
"Yuki... please." He pants. "Can we talk."
"No- now go." You say trying to push him out the door.
"Yuki... stop- just let me talk."
"NO- GO. AWAY!" You shout, still pushing him. He grabs your wrist and holds you tightly. You try to yank your arm away but he's too strong. You relax your eyes, and he takes a deep breath.
"Just listen to me... okay?"
"What exactly do you have to say... That you're a liar... That you've been using me."
"..." He stares at you and his eyes start to darken.
"Exactly... let go of me." You yank your arm from him harder. He loosens his grip on you allowing you to free yourself. You turn away and head towards the back of the bakery.
"You're right..." He softly says. You stop walking. You knew you were right but you didn't want him admitting it. You clench your fist tighter and storm up the stairs. He quickly follows behind you. You rush into your room, trying to find your phone. You can hear it buzzing too... meaning someone was calling you. You feel your phone under a blanket and grab at it. Izana grabs your wrist and pulls you away from the bed causing you to drop the phone.
"Hello?" A voice says from the phone. You could hardly make out what it says but you assume they said Hello. You try to reach for the phone but Izana stops you.
"Yuki."
"WHAT!" You shout.
"... I understand you're upset at me."
"Yeah no shit! You have been lying to me this whole time."
"Hello."
"I- Yes I have but..."
"But what?"
"You're right! I only spoke to you because of the rumors. The rumors that you and Mikey were a thing... I wanted to use you to make him angry. But-"
"To make him angry?" You question. "Why would you talking to me make him angry?" You ask.
"Yuki?"
"Because I wanted to steal his girlfriend away... you know- guys hate when their girl talks to another guy."
"Well, you've been mistaken." You say trying to pull away from him.
"Mistaken...?"
"Mikey wouldn't care... He doesn't even like me, so you wasted your time on some bullshit idea like that."
"..."
"..." Izana stares at you not knowing how to respond.
"You have no idea how much this pisses me off. I've already got rejected by him... and felt hurt by his bullshit. I gave you a chance to be in my life but you have been using me this whole time... and what? For MIKEY!? A GUY WHO DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME! HE USED ME TOO!"
"..."
"Why does my life have to be surrounded by bullshit. Why can't someone genuinely just like me and not mix me up in a hot bag with FUCKING MIKEY!"
"Yuki."
"You're just like everyone else."
"Yuki..."
"I wouldn't care if you were the leader of Tenjiku... or even an enemy of Mikey's. I just wish you were here because you wanted me and not because of Mikey." You sigh and turn around. Your face feels hot and tears begin to swell in your eyes.
"At first I did come here because of Mikey... and what I did was shitty... and you're right but- It's different now."
"..."
"I come here- I talk to you because I want to... I want you in my life Yuki. I want the things you said about us to be true. I want to be a baker. I want to have that future with you- I want you... "
"No you don't." You huff.
"I do." He softly says. You look back at him. His eyes are glossy. You never seen that expression on his face before. Like a desperate look. "Yuki..."
You shake your head and reach towards your phone that's on the ground.
"I love you Yuki..."
"... what?" You pause and slowly turn your head to see Izana staring down at you. A tear falling down his cheek.
"Please... don't leave me too..."