Hey, Kid!
Hey, Folks!
How have you been!?
WANT TO KNOW WHAT I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT!?
I HAVE A LOVER!!!
I AM OFFICIALLY IN A NEW, HEALTHY, AMAZING, RELATIONSHIP!!!
I couldn't have asked for more, you know?
Well...
I could ask for ONE more thing.
YOU.
YOU, Kid.
I know I...
I was giving up on you.
That was horribly selfish of me, you know?
But hey, with this phenomenal woman, you just may yet be born.
You may just find your way to me.
To US.
Myself and who I believe is your mother.
If not her, I have no idea who...
You would just remain out there among the stars in your Aether form if not for this one last love.
Hmm.
We will see, yeah?
She says that I am her One Last Knight.
I will do my best to stand by and for that.
For her.
For You, Kid.
Maybe...
Just maybe, you will have your little, mushy, flesh and bone sac soon enough, lol.
Here's hoping.
Let's see what the future holds, shall we?
We even spoke about a name for you.
What is it?
Hmm.
I'll keep that to myself for now, lol.
I love you, Kid.
I will hopefully see you soon enough.
Let's go see what Younger Me was getting into, shall we?
*Slaps a handful of glowing buttons on the dashboard of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000! and it whirls to life with a slow yet purposeful series of beeps and boops.
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May 9th, 2020.
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Dear You.
A bit late for work.
I misread my schedule, unfortunately, but all is well.
How have you been?
What's the world like now?
I'm writing as if I won't be around, lol.
We will see, huh?
I wonder if you will ever get the chance to be born...
To actually read this journal.
Here's hoping...
The world is in a wild place right now...
I hope it doesn't get to much worse.
COVID-19 is killing so many people, so fast
That the world is struggling to fight it off and find a way to keep it at bay.
I lost a friend.
I haven't seen him since nearly 2011...
We went to high school together.
He was only 30 years old.
I still don't know how he went...
I feel for his family.
So many people out of work.
Millions on unemployment.
I've been waiting for so long.
It's been over five weeks and still no money.
You would never EVER imagine being alive during a pandemic...
It's scary.
No one is immune to a "new" virus.
Just a crazy galactic lottery system...
I pray that one day you will sit with me and I can tell you all that I remember about all of this...
I've learned even more so to always (or at least always TRY to be) as prepared as you possibly can, as often as you can.
Be safe.
-Dad.
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*Pops back into 2025, wondering why I keep coming back to this weird point in time, but then remembering things like the butterfly effect, and the fact that you might be born to your own great aunt or something weird like that if I did stay back in 2020.
Hmm.
You know something?
COVID still lingers among us, we just don't pay it as much mind.
Like the Flu or the Cold.
We are a weird, wild, adaptive folk that way.
Us Humans, that is.
Hmm.
So many lost globally.
Such a dark chapter in our collective history, though some countries fared and did better than others by far.
Here in America?
Sheesh...
We got by...
We had King-
Oops, I mean President Trump in office, and his administration did so little that we may as well have just fended for ourselves.
Bah.
Enough of that.
-My friend from high school was such a kind, caring, cool-minded guy.
At least he was that way in school.
I didn't get the chance to hang out with him in our adult years before he passed, and I really wish that I did...
He is honored and immortalized as an Elvin Ranger in my series Leafaria.
It was the least I could do for him.
-I was an "Essential Worker", and I was not allowed to miss work.
I eventually had to take time off because my then fiancé contracted it, along with nearly her whole family.
-I eventually netted just over $5000.00 worth of back pay from the missed work and unemployment. I went and grabbed a money order for three times the amount of my monthly rent, and caught up on all of our missed bills and such.
She was (as we typically her temperament) far from grateful.
I literally didn't even get a hug.
Looking back at what we had, I know that it was for the best that I left her.
If I hadn't left her, I would have killed myself.
Many of you know me well enough to have heard that little fun fact several times by this point, I am sure. But I can't stress that enough.
I was miserable.
And she knew.
She also knew that...well, THOUGHT that I would NEVER leave her.
That I was so madly, stupidly in love with her that I would and could never dream of leaving her side.
She was right.
I would have never left her side.
She would have had to live with the fact that she had woken up next to my dead body, and would have had to explain that to anyone who cared about me.
Sheesh.
You want to know something?
I am far happier now than I have ever been in the entirety of my life...
I really am.
I've found someone who loves me just as mutually and deeply as I love her.
I am blessed beyond words for her.
You know something, Kid?
Mayhap you will be a thing.
Like... A REAL thing.
I hope so.
My heart and soul are waiting for you.
I think I've met your mother...
Now, to meet YOU.
We are both ready.
-COVID-19 was and still is horrifying. It kind of feels as if humanity has simply forgotten about it in many ways.
All of the jokes and memes just flood social media, and no one seems to bat an eye at any of it.
Hmm.
Humanity is strange that way.
I am even starting to see jokes about the Twin Towers when 9/11 rolls around annually...
Like, come on, people.
Have we no acumen?
No humility?
No care left?
Humanity is strange, indeed.
I will leave you all that, and I hope you all return for the next thrilling chapter lol.
I've been a bit sick lately, but as of the writing of this, I feel a bit better.
I hope to see you all back here soon enough, yeah?
We are very, very near the end of this Baby Journal, and I am getting a bit anxious, lbvs.
I love and appreciate all of you for taking this ride with me.
It's been a rollercoaster, you know?
Quite the cathartic journey here in the real world.
You all have made this that much easier, so good on you!
I will see you all back here soon, yeah?
Safe travels, Folks.
You as well, Kid.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.