Toni found himself staring into the night sky through his window. He was back home in his grandmother's estate. His mom was fighting for his freedom, but Lady Efreit was reluctant. His grandma was very protective of Toni.
But his thoughts were elsewhere.
Ever since he first laid eyes on Casseus, or Ryley, his thoughts were dominated by the boy. His striking green eyes captivated Toni's attention. His subtle muscles from years of hard labor, even the scars that covered his skin. All of it captivated Toni.
The man had a hard time containing his smile when he thought of the butler. He could feel the giddiness that drowned out the longing he felt. Part of him missed the boy's presence, while the other was occupied by their time together. He could still feel the firm hands on his back from the bath.
It did something to Toni that he had rarely felt in his life. It excited him sexually. For years, he was used to women throwing themselves at him, but something always held him back. Any man or woman would love to be adored by this many women, but Toni was always hesitant. Unsure as to why he didn't take advantage of his blessing, until now.
It was ironic. His blessing affected the opposite gender only, a quirk that Anka added so her Bestowed would mate. But her chosen beauty of this generation was attracted to men, not women. It made Toni laugh.
That made him wonder if Anka was mad at him. Would she be mad at him for feeling this way? Or would she encourage him to explore his feelings? He didn't know the answer at the moment. His contact skill was still on cooldown, still had several weeks to go. But knowing his Goddess, she'd be elated.
She would just be happy Toni was finally feeling this way. Finally in love with someone, it didn't matter who. He could feel the warm embrace of divine energy as he thought about it. A sign he was on the right track.
He smiled as he looked up at the full moon. It was a sight he wished to share with Ryley one day. The view from his grandmother's estate was incredibly beautiful. An apple orchid that separated the estate from the town. A bustling place with many lights and people.
His longing for Ryley grew the more he stared out the window. He pulled his blanket tightly around himself, feeling the cold night air. His mind and heart were thinking about how much better it'd be in his crush's arms.
That wasn't all. He had been ignoring the discomfort for quite a while now. His hand hovered over it hesitantly, wanting to ease his pain and frustration. It throbbed with need, held back by his nightgown.
He whimpered softly, not wanting to give in to the feeling. He wanted to wait. He wanted to feel this way with Ryley. Keep himself as pure as possible to be with his love. But the lust was overwhelming, seemingly encouraged by his Goddess.
Toni grasped his aching cock through his clothing, letting out a moan as he did. Much like with women, carnal pleasures like this were something he had neglected. The slightest touch made his whole body shiver. His hips thrusted instinctively, his body begging for more.
Toni's eyelids half closed as he let his lust consume him. He rubbed his length with his hand, moaning softly. He was too engrossed in the feeling that he didn't hear the footsteps approaching.
He was practically singing as he moaned, his whole body trembling as he rubbed. His breath was quick and his heart beating, drowning out the approaching presence. The pleasure blinded him to everything.
He was pulled out of it by a hand shaking his shoulder. His eyes were wide, and he could feel his face redden.
"Toni!" Alice cried out. "Gods, I've been calling you-"
Alice's voice tapered off, not finishing her sentence. She stared into the bewildered eyes of her son, finally realizing what she had interrupted. An awkward silence fell upon the two as both mother and son's faces reddened. Alice's thoughts raced as she tried to think about what to say.
A large part of her was embarrassed, but the other part. Well, she wanted to ignore that part. She took a deep breath, trying her best to keep her composure. She should be thankful that Toni finally seemed interested in this kind of thing. It wasn't something he'd ever been interested in.
"Sorry… I didn't realize what you were doing." She muttered. Toni squirmed under her gaze, not meeting her eyes. "If I may ask, what changed?"
Toni blinked rapidly. He finally looked his mother in the eyes with confusion. "Wh-what?"
"Um, I don't think you ever showed interest in se… this kind of thing," Alice said awkwardly. She could feel her face burning. "What changed to make you interested?"
Toni swallowed hard. He'd always been quite open with his mother, but this seemed far different. Was it right to tell her about his lewd thoughts?
He took a deep breath and whispered. "Casseus the butler… do you remember him?"
Alice tilted her head, "You mean Ryley? Of course I remember him."
Toni nodded his head. "Him."
Alice tilted her head further. It took her a moment to fully process before her eyes widened. "Wait! Him? You have a crush?"
Toni nodded his head sheepishly. Alice wanted to hug her boy in excitement, but the awkwardness held her back. She knew it wouldn't be good to hug the boy, given what she walked into.
Alice sighed, "I'd, uh, hug you, but…"
Toni gave her a shy smile that melted her heart. She forced down the overwhelming emotions and patted her boy on the head.
"That's amazing Toni… I should, I should go now." She whispered.
Toni gave her another awkward nod as he squirmed. Human touch felt weird at that moment, the warmth fueling his desire. Toni's feelings were conflicted to continue given his mother's interruptions.
Except for the moment his mother left his room, his hand was already moving. The pleasure was too addicting to not continue. He fell to his side, muffling his moans by biting his blanket. The pleasure was nearly overwhelming, but something was missing.
For some reason, Toni felt empty.
Not emotionally or hollow, but a need to be filled. It was overwhelming his pleasure as he became aware of it. An ache from within that made him squirm. He pulled off his nightgown, and his panties were quickly tossed aside as he fixated on that overwhelming feeling.
He grasped his cock with one hand, as the other glided across his thigh. He was feeling for the origin of that ache as his cock throbbed in his hand. His left hand cupped his balls, hoping that was what he needed. But it wasn't.
It was further down. Some place he'd never thought of when it came to pleasure. His middle finger grazed against his hole, causing his whole body to shiver violently. A wave of pleasure caused his mind to blank.
He came to after realizing what his finger was doing subconsciously. He was thrusting in and out with his finger as his other hand continued to stroke his shaft. It melted his mind to feel the overwhelming pleasure. He bit tightly on the blanket as his finger went deeper and deeper into his tight hole.
His hand was slick with precum as he continued to pleasure himself. He squirmed on his side, his hips thrusting. His blanket was now ruined with his arousal as he kept going. His mind was dominated by one desire and one desire alone. He wished his finger were Ryley. He wished Ryley were giving him this pleasure.
He wished for Ryley to be in him.
The moment he thought that, his finger grazed against something that shot pleasure throughout his whole body. His cock throbbed wildly in his hand as it leaked. Toni moaned into the blanket, holding back his orgasm.
He brushed his finger against the spot one more time, his whole body jerking. It was far too much pleasure. Toni kept rubbing the spot within him as he thought of Ryley. He longed for Ryley to give him this pleasure.
He went faster and faster with his finger, forgoing his cock entirely. He only cared for the feeling his finger was giving him at that moment. He arched his back as he whined into the blanket.
Toni let go of the blanket as he sang, "FuUuUck!"
His whole body shivered as his insides tightened around his finger. His cock throbbed one final time before white, hot cum shot out, staining the blanket. Toni's whole body shook with each release, his eyes rolled back, and his body went limp.
He didn't care about making a mess or being heard, all he cared about was how good that felt. He lay on his side, breathing heavily as he slowly recovered. His body was covered in sweat, and his thigh coated in his seed. It burned his skin, adding to the pleasure still coursing through his body.
"Anka… I wish to be with him."