The crystal was on the bedside table.
She had felt it the moment Ren approached and his gallant and manly energy woke her up, that perception she always had of what was inside it, present even when she wasn't holding it, present even when she was horizontal and pretending to be asleep.
The energy inside was so small and so fragile it barely registered. The contrast between what it had been and what it was now landed somewhere she wasn't going to examine closely right now because she couldn't afford to in this particular moment with her face already doing things she had limited control over.
She wanted to have it in her hands and hug it to apologize for using it so harshly, taking its warm energy so heartlessly .
'I'm sorry… I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry I'm so sorry!!!'
