As D kept talking, his emotions became more and more agitated, like a volcano about to erupt. His whole body was in a state close to madness and hysteria.
That final sentence, "Did you really think I would follow behind you like a fool for the rest of my life?" was almost shouted out.
This long string of words he spoke felt like a long timeline, starting from distant childhood and stretching all the way to before that accident happened.
Clearly, these words had been piling up in his heart for a long time, like heavy stones he could hardly bear.
But even though D tried his best to slander and attack Notch, these words did not bring Notch any real harm at all.
On the contrary, they were like a mirror that mercilessly reflected the deep inferiority D could not hide inside himself.
You should know that those who are truly strong always have a very stable core. Both their thinking and their willpower are firm.
All kinds of outside factors are nothing more than passing clouds to them and cannot shake them in the slightest.
They are also always able to focus their attention on themselves and never care too much about what others think of them.
Besides that, they never blindly compare themselves with others, because they understand themselves deeply and clearly know what suits them and what does not.
When facing their own shortcomings, they accept them calmly, but they never fall into trouble because of them or turn them into chains that hold back their progress.
Obviously, D was not this kind of strong person.
In fact, he was very far from the powerful image he imagined in his own mind.
He was nothing more than a pitiful man, blinded by deep inferiority and nearly mad jealousy, completely losing the direction he should move toward.
He envied the strong, but sadly, although he desperately wanted to become one of them, reality was cruel, and he never managed to step onto the path of becoming truly strong.
Because of this, he had to take an extreme and mistaken approach, trying to prove himself stronger by putting Notch down.
For a long time, he stubbornly believed that he lived under Notch's huge shadow and could not escape it.
But the truth was often sigh-worthy. In reality, what had always bound him tightly was not anyone or anything from the outside, but the thick shadow inside his own heart.
It could not be denied that D did have quite a high IQ, and fate also seemed to favor him.
Just the fact that he was able to meet Notch and gradually build a close friendship where they could talk about anything already proved that his starting point in life was far higher than most people.
Compared with the people he often called "poor kids," the difference was like heaven and earth.
It could even be said without exaggeration that his starting position had already surpassed the vast majority of ordinary people.
If D had not been so insecure, or if he had not insisted on competing with Notch in everything,
then maybe the person people saw today might not be as outstanding as Notch, but at least he would not have fallen so far behind.
Even if you stepped back and imagined further, even if he himself was completely unwilling to make any effort at all and just lay around at home every day doing nothing, living a lazy life waiting for death, with Notch's character and way of dealing with people, he would surely still have done everything he could to help him.
After all, with a close friend like Notch by his side, whether in terms of social status or quality of daily life, he would certainly have stayed at a stable middle to upper level. That was almost beyond doubt.
But D ruined a set of heaven-chosen good cards. Ending up like this was no one's fault but his own.
It was he himself who personally destroyed the perfect, happy, and enviable life he should have had.
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At this moment, when Notch saw D's crazed and almost irrational appearance with his own eyes, the only things revealed in his eyes were deep sorrow and helplessness.
D truly had not changed in the slightest. He was still the same as before, with no improvement at all.
Even after so many years, he had kept himself locked in that dark corner and had never taken even a single small step forward.
The saddest part was that even now, he still had not clearly realized that the one truly binding him was not anyone else, but himself.
Not even for a single second had he calmly reflected on himself. Instead, he blindly pushed all the blame onto others around him.
D had gone so far into madness that he could no longer listen to a single word, and faced with such a situation, Notch was unwilling to waste any more breath talking to him.
At this moment, Notch only coldly watched this nearly insane D in silence and did not give him even the slightest response from beginning to end.
However, Notch's reaction clearly went far beyond D's expectations.
D had just spoken so many hysterical words, thinking that he could at least cause some emotional reaction or response from Notch.
But the final result felt like throwing a heavy punch into cotton.
Before this, he had imagined countless times that after Notch heard these words, his face might show anger, surprise, guilt, or all kinds of expressions.
But he never expected Notch's face to remain calm like still water, without any reaction at all.
If it were someone else, they would not keep embarrassing themselves at a moment like this, but D was not an ordinary person.
He wanted to see Notch lose his composure, and how could he stop before reaching his goal?
He quickly steadied himself, and the face that had just been bulging with veins from anger suddenly became full of smiles.
He looked at Notch again and waved his hand.
"Forget it, that's all in the past. I suppose you wouldn't be too interested anyway."
"Then let's talk about something you are interested in."
At this point, D looked at Notch with a playful expression and continued, "You're very smart. You guessed at a glance that I was going to lay everything out with you."
"But you didn't guess the reason why I would do that, right?"
After hearing these words, although Notch's face still showed no expression, his eyes moved slightly.
Clearly, aside from J's safety, this was exactly what Notch cared about most right now.
D had been watching Notch the whole time while saying these words, so he naturally noticed Notch's subtle expression.
Seeing this, D's smile became even more smug.
"Since the matter is already settled, there's no harm in telling you."
"Do you know that all this time, the power J and I have been using has come from you?"
"I originally thought that after you regained your memories, that power would return to you."
At this point, D looked at Notch again, his eyes full of mockery.
"So… dear Creator God, Lord Notch."
"Have you felt that power?"
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