Despite her reluctance to admit it, she was actually somewhat afraid of and guilty toward Lin Xiaoguai. Her fear stemmed from the woman's excellence; other than in age, she couldn't find a single aspect where she felt superior. Sometimes she even second-guessed herself, thinking that choosing such an opponent might have been foolish. But the moment she thought of Shen Chi, all hesitation vanished.
She yearned for that man, even in her dreams.
As for the guilt... she wasn't ignorant of morality and etiquette and clearly understood that intruding into someone else's marriage was wrong. But Shen Chi's temptation was so great that she simply couldn't control herself.
