After trying to figure out the root cause of my sorrow, I've come to the conclusion that it's not flowers, it's not letters, it's not pictures that I want with you..
Yes, maybe all those mentioned are something we need in a relationship, but for me, without the burning passion of loving someone all those mentioned above are useless, as if they were lists to be check marked. I told you all that bothers,everything that makes me overthink alot of stuff and you did good to try fix yourself for me, but I noticed, that change, it's scary isn't it?
—Of course, what's life, without a little change?
Change is scary . .. Not the instant change, but the subtle change that haunts you.. Slowly.. And you suffer..
Suddenly you forgot everything. And I wanted to change, but all you noticed, that I changed. Did you ask me "Why are you like this, am I doing something wrong?,".
Hard to understand?
Our situation is like a rose, it's beautiful and perfect, but with each passing time, the petals slowly.. Fall.. First, it's not that noticable and it's still beautiful, then the second—nothing much. Then the third, fourth, Fifth, until finally we notice the Rose, it's lost it's petals, what once a beautiful red flower is now nothing but a dark stem.. It's slowly fading.. Slowly turning to dust.. Like us.