Chapter One Hundred Fifty-Nine:
Past…
I intently look at her before I speak what I truly wanted to say.
"Siara, I know you don't want to hear those words but I still have to say it. I'm so sorry." I said and she was about to answer but I speak ahead of her. "Just please listen." I pleaded before she finally listens in silence. "I was not able to fulfill your last request and now, you are once again involved in this problem. I feel like I haven't done anything right for you and I'm so sorry—Siara." Siara suddenly hold my hand.
"You don't have too, Haimon." She answered. "I saw how much you valued and protected my rebirth into the world. You done everything just for my sake and you even stop the prophecy for happening and for those reasons. It is already enough for me, Haimon. So, don't feel so sorry if these things happening again. Manu is still my twin not even in memories but we have history and soon we will end up meeting no matter what we do. Even the thread that connects us were already been cut off, there is still connecting us. So, I'll be the one who needs to say… I'm sorry. For giving you a hard time and still continues until now. I'm so sorry."
"Siara." I don't know what to say anymore I just look at her and she did the same way before she released my hand and smiles.
"But I'm still happy because," she looks down to Shu Tokino. "You love her as who she is. Not because you see me on her."
I smile at her before turning my gaze but to Shu Tokino. "You were right, and I'm glad to know that you understand it clearly."
"Of course, I understand it nothing to worry. Remember, I'm from your past and she's your present and I'll make sure she's also your future." What she said is already enough and I look back to her, and for the last time I look intently to her face. I miss and love her and no doubt about that she will always remain a part of me.
"Thank you." I spoke. "And I'm glad to see you again."
"I'm glad to see you too." she said before she slowly vanished. "And I think this is it! I didn't tell you this when we were together until my last breath but now, I can tell. Goodbye Haimon."
I was surprised by what she said because she hadn't really said goodbye to me before. Because the last word she said to me before she finally lost her life was, 'I'm sorry for letting you do this thing, my Love.' And I know exactly what she means and now this is the first and I wanted to say it too.
"Goodbye Siara." I replied before Siara totally vanished. I felt sad the second time but the sadness I felt then is very different now. Now that she's gone, I focus myself back to Shu Tokino, as what Siara told me, I bite Shu Tokino's left wrist.
Present…
"Hai-Haimon?" I said once I open my eyes. "Wh-what are you doing he-here?"
"Oh, thank God! You're safe!" Haimon immediately hugs me tight.
"Wh-what happened?" because as far as I remember, I was with Siara and she already explained everything to me before she said 'goodbye'. Sadness filled me at the same time I felt happy to finally meet the woman that everyone talking about. Siara Meinir my past and Haimon's past.
"Are you alright?" I heard him worriedly asked.
I look at him. "I-I'm fine." I answered. "But, did you know where we are?"
"Through your consciousness," he answered. "And I know it is risky to enter your consciousness without your knowledge but I take the risk of saving you."
Saving me? Is he… "You knew my spirit was poisoned?"
"Yes, that is why I'm here for you."
"Then, Siara was right." I said it unknowingly.
"What did you just say?" He suddenly asked. "Ha-have you met Siara too?"
I was surprised from what I heard from him. "Did she meet you too?"
Haimon takes a deep breath before he answered. "Yes, we've met and finally I heard the word that I badly wanted to hear and wanted to say back. No pain and sadness at all, we already said––"
"Goodbye." I said. "She also told me her farewell before she vanished and I am thankful of her because, without her the poison that Kanik gave me might kill me and––"
"Wait!" he cuts me off. "You already know about Kanik?"
"Uhm," I said and nodded. "Siara already explained it to me and showed me who bit me and gave me poison. I already knew everything."
"Oh, God!" he hugs me again. "I'm so sorry, my Love! I did everything to keep you out of danger but I still failed. And I also apologized to Siara for not doing what I promised her. So, I really feel so sorry for the both of you, my Love."
"You don't have to feel sorry, my Love." I answered. "Because being here with me, risking your life just to save me is already enough and I know that is what Siara felt. You've done your best to protect us from the past and from present. And I know, even we reach the future you will continue protecting me."
Haimon smiles widely. "You both said the same thing." He answered. "Anyway, you're right. I won't feel sorry towards you or Siara. Instead, I will do all my best to continue protecting you no matter what it takes." He sincerely stated.
I smile at him wholeheartedly. "I will stay by your side and I will trust my entire life to you, Haimon." I said and hold his face with my both hands. "I love so so much, Haimon."
"I love you more and more, Shu Tokino." he said as he holds my face before kissing me with so much love and tender.
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