Sixty-Two:
Kingdom of Heaven
I thought about what Dione said about their Father. Could they see their Father face to face or like us humans, the only image we know is his only son who became human?
I don't know and I'm afraid to ask them directly. I feel like, even though they are children of God who created everything, they don't spend much time with him or talk to him often.
I can't help but ask myself if, are they still called family or were they just made so that they can be called children of the creator?
Questions… Just simple questions that I don't know if there will be an answer.
That is why I choose not to speak or ask I just silently watch them as they lead me to the Ninth Kingdom.
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Ninth Kingdom
"Welcome to the Ninth Kingdom." Zamariel announced and at the same time the gate was mysteriously opened.
A dazzling light made me close my eyes after the gate opened and it took me a while before I open it because, not only did I see a dazzling light, but I also felt the warmth that greeted me in this place. When I was completely adjusted to what greeted me, I slowly opened my eyes and immediately met a place that was familiar to me.
In my memory, even in my dreams I have never reached this place but why did I feel like I knew this place ever since? Though, there was a pain in my heart when I saw the whole surrounding, so much pain that I didn't notice my hand caressing my chest to relieve and ease it.
"Are you alright, Jeanne?" Almos worriedly asked me after noticing what I am doing.
"Ye-Yes." I stammered as I inhale and exhale.
"I think, she's already exhausted." It was Ilmatar. "She's still a human and going here already reaches her limitations."
Maybe she was right I'm just exhausted that is why I feel this sudden pain.
"She can now rest in the room prepared for her."
"But…" Almos was about to say something then chose not to.
"Almos, the Lord knew this would happen the moment she arrived in this place, so the room she would rest in was ready before facing him." Zamariel explained. "Now, I will take you to your room. Come, and follow me."
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When Zamariel took me to my room, I was immediately left alone and from there I sat on the bed as I conditioned my feeling. I don't know how long I made, I just felt fine then I heard a voice.
It is a soft voice and it came from a woman. I listened to it carefully until it became clear to me that the voice was familiar because I had heard it once before.
'In limbo!' I shouted to myself.
Right! This is the voice I heard that saved me from the danger I'm in when I accidentally entered the limbo. It is a woman and not a man. But who is this woman? And where does this voice come from? I cannot even understand what she was saying as if she was talking in a different language that I only heard when Ilmatar and the others wanted to hide things from me.
I tried my best to find it when suddenly a knock from the door disturbs me. Along with the weak knocks, Almos called me. I slowly opened my eyes and only then did I realize that I had fallen asleep without even realizing it. It means that I was only dreaming when I heard that voice. Though, my instinct tells me it is for real.
"Jeanne? Are you alright?"
Almos asked outside yet I'm in daze, when I try to fully wake up myself. I don't know, but I feel so weak I couldn't even lift up my hands or should I say, I couldn't move at all. My eyes keep on shutting and when I try to force it open, my world starts spinning I feel nausea and I suddenly vomit.
That's when I heard the door to my room swing open and Almos came rushing to my side.
"Jeanne! Are you alright?" He worriedly asked while he rubbed my back to aid the unknown pain I'm feeling.
"I-I'm fine." I said as I wipe my mouth. "Sorry, I… I'll clean this up."
"No, you still need to rest. I'll take care of it."
"But–––"
"Please, just do as I say because even if you have some protections, you will still feel the strong presence of this place."
"You were right." Then I sighed, when I suddenly remember the voice that I heard before he visits me. "The voice!" I said as my eyes open wide.
"Who's voice?"
"A woman's voice."
"And who was that?"
"I don't know… I just suddenly heard it when I stayed here or maybe I'm just too tired of our sudden journey and I'm not sure if I slept enough?" Yet, I'm so sure I clearly heard someone calling out on me.
"You've slept for three hours."
"Three hours? Really?" I answered surprisingly because I really felt it was just a while. I even feel like it isn't enough for me to gather enough strength not because of some God to face, but because of the truth that is slowly unfolding right in front of me.
"Yes, it's been three hours when we left you, until I decided to check on you the reason why I'm here." He explained.
"I don't know." Puzzled I linger blankly.
"Jeanne?"
I blink my eyes twice before I speak. "It's nothing."
Almos intently stare at me and it took him a while before he answered. "I know what you feel, Jeanne. As the truth slowly unfolding right in front of our eyes, we will suffer but mostly in your part. As a normal person in this heavenly world, it will be your greatest burden before reaching the whole truth." He seriously stated that I agree with him in silence.
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