How many people endure the pain of longing through long, dark nights, and how many never give up despite the suffering of yearning.
"Dad, I never imagined living this way, nor did I ever think about hurting you in this manner. Doing such things is the deepest pain in my heart. All I've wanted is to give you the best of myself repeatedly, but I can't do it. I don't understand when I turned into who I am now—I pushed myself, step by step, into a dead end, only to discover that everything I did was wrong.
You are right, no one has wronged me, and no one has betrayed me. The betrayer was not you but me. I repeatedly inflicted heavy harm on you. I forgot that you gave me the warmest family, taught me about familial love and romantic love. Step by step to this point, I can't even tell which version of myself is real anymore. I've lost my true self; my original intention has changed, and I've become numb, indifferent!
