Zhang Yichen now feels that his father's experiences outside over these years were indeed a rich tapestry of life—experiences that he himself has not had. He too wanted to wander freely and live for himself, unfettered by the world. However, all these years he has been working towards his goals, trying to prove to the whole world that he is a good man, yet he has forgotten what it is that he ultimately wants.
"Dad, do you know? When I hear about your life experiences, what I feel deep inside is mostly envy. I admire you even more for living so unrestrainedly outside for so long, able to disregard everything at home and live freely just for your own happiness. Yet, I can't do that. My entire life has been spent running around for the sake of everyone in the family. I have never known what it's like to live on my own; I haven't even tried to figure out how to do it!"
