But to you, that doesn't mean much. You have few ties with the Yuan Family of Yan Province, and even the waist card in your hand symbolizing your status is something you would discard without a second thought.
The battlefield is the best place to hone your Fast Knife skills, where all your hard practice can manifest, and each encounter is with a different enemy. You've already faced off against five generals under Lü Bu, and apart from Zang Ba, the other four—Sun Guan included—are not your match.
When facing that burly Zang Ba, you managed only to fight him to a draw, and because it's the battlefield, neither you nor he can fully exert yourselves. If it were a real fight, you admit you probably wouldn't be a match for Zang Ba.
But, unlike Zang Ba, you are constantly improving. Your blade is getting faster, and with deliberate hard work, you've found that your energy is slowly but steadily increasing.
You believe that as long as you keep striving, you'll surpass Lü Bu someday!
