I know I was wrong for taking her life,
But she ruined my dream—her, being my wife.
In the end, life is still unfair to me;
Olivia broke me, but now she is free.
The day I met her was the day I met joy,
But for her, it's the day she met her toy.
We should've been five years together now
If you hadn't broken our promises and vow.
Yes, I can just kill the guy and not you,
But I know there are others waiting for you.
You said you're sorry, and I forgave you,
But you did it again without a cue.
I should've not looked at you back then,
So I wouldn't fall for you like all the men.
For the smile you're showing was just a trap,
Saying you love me when you're on someone's lap.
How foolish was I to believe all your words,
When you'd done it before—with records?
Maybe that's why they say that love is blind,
But it's not; I saw it, yet I didn't mind.
Love is love when both of you are sharing;
Love is not love if only one is loving.
I did everything to keep us intact,
But behind my back, I was being attacked.
If I only enjoyed my alone time,
Then I won't be a victim of this love's crime.
But I was too vulnerable with her;
Even if I try, I can't resist her.
There's something in her I can't comprehend,
From the moment I saw her till the end.
Or maybe it's the fact that she's a cheater,
Enchanted by the smile, the eyes that glitter.
I changed her clothes into a white dress.
She's still beautiful, and I'm still impressed.
She's like Sleeping Beauty waiting for a kiss;
I pressed my lips to hers so I won't miss.
If you'd been faithful to me like I'm to you,
We both wouldn't experience this kind of blue.
You took my heart with you—the other piece,
But we ended up tragically like this.
Hurting you was not my real intention;
I was just fired up due to the situation.
And I know you understand why I'm mad—
You played my heart though I loved you so bad.
If in case we meet in the afterlife,
Would you choose me knowing I end your life?
Cause for me, I will keep on choosing you,
Even if you broke my heart in two.
And I regret everything I've done;
I shouldn't have done that, but now you're gone.
If I ask for forgiveness, will you give it,
Or will you pretend that you didn't hear it?
I know you don't deserve what happened,
But this isn't what I want for our end.
This is what led to the path you chose;
You threw the chance and sealed your heart—closed.
A tear rolls down my face and I don't know:
Is this a tear of triumph or sorrow?
Yes, I wanted to get revenge, but not this;
Planned to scare her but was forced to use my fist.
I know I can't undo what I have done,
And for this crime, I know I cannot run.
But I was also a victim like her—
It's just that at first, I didn't bother.
Believe it or not, I loved her truly,
And we all have the right to love freely.
But who gave her the right to play my heart,
When all I wanted was for us not to part?
I am neither gullible nor naïve;
I was just vulnerable that eve.
For I thought she was sincere then,
Looked in my eyes and said, "I won't do it again."
If you love someone, you should trust them,
And I did—gave her again my gem
Without thinking what would be the outcome,
And not sure if I will overcome.
I still can't believe she's already gone;
I lost my moon as well as my sun.
She died in the hands of her lover—
A lover who only wants to be loved by her.
"Too much love will kill you if you can't make up your mind."
I killed my lover; anger made me blind.
Gave her chances, was willing to accept her;
She refused, which led to this murder.
But I wish I could turn back the time
To improve myself and to avoid this crime.
Maybe I lacked something she's looking for,
So she met someone, for she wanted more.
But she should've told me so I'll know,
Instead of walking away and just go.
But the love she showed me—was it true,
Or was it all part of her strategic hue?
I don't know what to believe anymore.
The pain is getting deeper down my core.
I can't breathe and my head starts aching;
Tell me, is my life still worth living?
I guess not, so I get the knife beside me,
Pointed it at my chest, prick it as I see.
The blood comes out, making my shirt wet.
The next thing I know—in darkness I was set.