"Oh, you live alone, not dating anyone?" I look at his shy expression, and I can't help but think how cute he is and almost forgot the question that was said. "No, not dating anyone. What about you, you dating somebody? " he looked happy after my statement, but I wanted to know his answer."No." I was a bit surprised at his answer. After all, he was so cute and handsome with his big blue eyes and dirty blond hair, and that smile, that smile I love so much ,I was so stuck in my thoughts I didn't notice how long I was staring and turned away "oh" I said "oh?!"Yeah, I thought you were and was surprised at how someone as cute as you was single." I looked away and was surprised. I said that out loud he was blushing red and flustered "uh uh y-y-you think i'm cute. I look at him, and he looks away.
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I look away at the fact I asked that question but yet he said "yeah your really cute" I think I got more flushed then I already was and I was on cloud 9 the words he said kept repeating in my mind and it was like a dream and I never wanted to wake up "s-s-so you ready to go" we get in the car and there is a long silense ... When we got to my house, I got out of the car, and James followed behind me to walk me to the door. "S-so I had a good time," I said shyly. "Yeah, me too." We stood there awkwardly for a minute as we didn't know what to say. "S-s-s-so I will see you," he said in an awkward manner. I smiled at it because it's rare to see him like this and not with that serious look on his face.
"I will see you goodnight James". He smiles "goodnight" and I go in the side and shut the door behind me. That was the most fun I have had in a long time. I haven't had a good time sense my brother pasted 2 years age he past on a mission, a mission I was supposed to go on but I didn't want to kill people like my family so he went instead and got kill "look at me can't even have a good time with out thinking about it but I deserve that"I sit on the floor. After Jace was murderer I ran away I never wanted to be an assassin and the fact that I lost my brother the person I looked up to the most and it was my fault then I was supposed to be the next leader I just couldn't so I ran. That was all two years ago and yet I still can't get over the loss of Jace and the words that have been hunting me ever sense that day 2 years ago "It's you fault you killed your own brother your a monster". The words that kept playing in my brain after so long
I got up and walked to the bathroom and got that blade out. " You deserve this, you deserve this for killing your brother. All you had to do was go. No, the mission and kill the person, but still you get sick at the thought of that if only .. if only I had gone, it would head been you instead of Jace. You did that to him. You killed Jace. " With that, I slid the blad over my arm. I started this 5 months after my brother's murderer I felt responsible for it, and sense today is the day he died. I felt more guilty than ever I ran the blade over my arm again and again than I turned on the sink with tires still dripping for my face and put my arm under the cold water I turned the water off and looked at my arm with all the old scars with the three new ones. I sigh and head in my room, and with tears in my eyes, I lay on my bed. I was about to go cry myself to sleep when I heard a knock at the door. I get up and open the door, and it's James with my phone.