I raced out of the hall without breaking stride or even looking back.
I was too ashamed to even stop.
I didn't see where I was going, I simply ran and ran.
After almost ten minutes of running non stop I came to a forced halt.
I was breathing so heavily I could barely breathe.
My body hurt but not as much as I was overwhelmed with shame.
What had I been thinking?
I hit my head over and over again.
"Stupid stupid stupid!" I told myself.
I should hate him!
I should hate Xaden for what he had done. He was the reason my baby was dead and yet here I was letting him take advantage of me.
He was well aware that I used to be in love with him.
He knew that I had zero shame and I was always going to be easy for him to run back to.
My knees wobbles in sadness and sorrow.
What was wrong with me?
Why was I throwing away my chance to finally find a family who would love me?
All I wanted to do was move and forget everything tha had happened to me.
Start life afresh.
