Love, hate, she is truly too exhausted to deal with them now.
She doesn't blame him, and has never blamed him, if there's anyone to blame it's only herself; their first meeting was never with good intentions.
Jordan Guthrie's lack of trust in her was justified.
She had already forgotten why she chose to die at that time, perhaps she was truly too disappointed, with Jordan Guthrie, even more with herself, and also with Nina.
The relationship between the three of them, it seemed like a one-sided joke to her.
So it turns out there was never any so-called deep sisterly love. In the beginning, in order to save Nina, she even chose to betray Amanda Smith, but in the end, she was the one betrayed and set up by Nina.
That feeling was truly soul-crushing.
It probably felt no different from a dagger to the heart.
Her life seems to be a joke.
