Betrayed the organization, and betrayed friends too, all of this is retribution.
When she calmly thinks about all of this, she doesn't feel anything wrong with her current state — she knows she won't live much longer.
The old doctor who took her in is childless, never married; her body is so crippled that she can't help him go out to sea to fish, and all she does daily is help him sun-dry some Chinese herbs in the courtyard.
Or she would go to the market to buy groceries and cook for him; life was relatively peaceful.
Although every time the wind blew and it rained, her whole body would ache, rolling in pain on the bed. After every bout of pain, she felt her health getting worse.
Time was telling her that the moment of collapse was an inevitability, sooner or later.
The aging doctor tried everything to treat her, his medical skills were naturally good, relied upon by everyone in the town, but even so, he couldn't alleviate her pain in the slightest.
