I stood frozen on the spot, I tried to suppress my tears, but it just flow down my cheeks freely.
The man standing facing me just look at me with guilty expression, he murmur 'sorry…' gain and again under his tired breathing.
I can't say any word now, it's like my world is crumbling down in front of me.
When I hoped I would be working in Wales company, when I filled the application form excitedly, when I woke up at five a.m. to get interviewed.
And now I'm here, in presidential's room at night.
Before I broke into tears in front of him.
My legs quickly carry me to the door but it was locked, I forgot it completely.
He strode to the door when he see me trying to open the door, and unlocked it.
I murmur 'thank you, sir…'
He just nodded slowly and I taken that as a 'you can go' then I sped out of the room.
As I reached the ground floor of the hotel, tears I tended to hold start to flow again like a waterfall. 'Why last night I have to let him carry me?'
'Why I drank so much?' 'Why I'm a fool?'.
What would he think after last night.
'Am I gonna get fired?'
I heaved a sight I don't know I'm holding. Then just let it be, whatever it is, I just have to believe in fate.
I held a cap and headed back to my apartment.
…
She left, but I just stood there staring at the last sight of her back sped to the elevator.
I just don't know weather to worry that she'll be mad at me or that I should worry about anyone knowing about last night incident?
I heaved a sight and decide to just let the fate flow.
…
Before I even reached to open the door to my room, my phone rang, I tiredly pick it up without checking the name.
And I regretted in that second, I felt like my eardrums would explode.
"LUNA!! WHERE WERE YOU LAST NIGHT?!!"
Karen's voice made me quickly withdraw my phone to protect my eardrums, like she's shouting at the top of her lung.
"Be calm, be calm… I just have too much of wine an-"
"WHAT?!! YOU WERE DRUNK?!!"
"…"
"WHY DONT YOU TELL ME?! YOU"RE DRUNK AND JUST DISAPPEARED!!"
I just freeze there and slowly exhaled, making sure she didn't hear that.
"Then… where are you now?"
I replied her when she seem to calmed down a bit, but her voic filled with worry, I should thank her.
"…I'm in my apartment now… don't worry!"
Though I just standing in front of my room, didn't enter yet.
"Why there're noise? You're not alone?"
"…"
Sh*t! How did she know?!
"Umm… I just made my way to the corridor"
"Then… if you're fine now I'll leave you to have a rest, but remember to tell me everything on Monday! See you soon!"
And she hung up, I smiled weakly, at least she's worry about me.
I pushed the door open and throw my handbag away, then throw myself into my dearest bed.
…
"Why didn't you came home last night?! Where were you?!"
His voice now icy cold and filled with rage, like a erupting volcano.
"I was so tired dad, so I just fell asleep in my hotel room"
"…"
There was a long silence on the other end of the line and I know he's not convinced, so I added.
"I informed my secretary to handle the party for me, everything was going smoothly!"
"Then… come home in the evening, your mom will cook for you"
"See you in evening then, dad"
He hung up so I just heaved another sight and throw myself into the bed, regretted lying to my father.
…
In my dream, I am heading to my office in the morning.
When I reached the main entrance, gossips start to break through the crowd of girls and boys.
"That's the girl who passed because she slept with our big boss!"
"that filthy sh*t! she ruined my dream of being his mistress!"
"she's the one who seduct the big boss!!"
Disgusting gazes shot straight as I was above to enter the office.
I was snapped back to my real life, grasping for breath and patting my head.
'That's just a dream! No one would know last night incident!'
And another dream visited me when I fell asleep again.