I'm tired to do anything.. I don't feel motivated anymore.
Lately I feel like I lost interest in almost everything around. I don't feel the same way like I do in the past when I'm doing my hobbies like reading novels or watching anime.
Don't get me wrong, I don't have any sickness or what, it's just that's how I feel right now.
The only thing that I didn't lose interest in is to survive because I am alone, an orphan. Everyday I work just to survive and here I am walking in the dark street because I just got out from work very late.
While on my way home, I saw a child who will be hit by a car, well just like everyone I didn't do anything and just stare at it but someone save that child while losing his life. I commend his courage to help but at the same time I've felt like mocking him because of what he did. I wouldn't do what he did. It's not like I can't but I choose not to.
It's because I value my life over the others. If you will hate me because of that, well I don't care! This is me. No one's gonna honor me after I die or maybe the family of that child might be but after that I'll be erase. They'll eventually forget me. That's reality.
I've finally reached my home after the long day of work and that incident. I open the tv to watch the news because of that incident.
Broadcast live! 5 teenagers mysteriously disappear inside the school! The school departments checked all of the cctv and didn't see anything on why they disappeared. The parents of the victims are grieving because it's been a week since they last saw their childrens. The authorities vow to investigate and find the lost teenagers.
Nothing on the news yet. Just some uninteresting topic that making the people crazier. I don't understand why they want to report some weird topic on the news. Maybe the broadcasting company isn't earning enough.
With nothing to do I decided to turn off the tv and go to my room to play games. I Just wants to tire myself since even after all the work and that incident, I still have energy and I don't feel sleepy.