Chapter 18 - Troubled Helen
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When I finally came to my senses, Sarah lay collapsed beside me, breathing heavily and looking totally exhausted. My own mind felt groggy and dazed when I felt Sarah burrowing her head into my chest as she hugged me tightly.
Don't tell me... is she going to continue even further?
Thankfully, Sarah stayed still as she spoke slowly,
"Young miss... forgive me for having taken your first time like this. Although Mistress had instructed me to act tonight, it had been me who looked forward to doing it with you. She said that you may overcome your hesitation this way, but... it looks like it was me who was hesitating till now. Young miss, I love you. I really do. I love you very, very much. I am happy to be your first, and because... my first time was with you. I will be yours forever and ever. Only yours till eternity."
"Actually, I know that the Young miss doesn't favor me much, and... would seek other females other than me. Don't worry, Young miss. I don't ask you to be just mine. You don't need to belong to me. Rather, I wish to belong to you. Even when you have many partners and lovers in the future, please let me stay by your side. Allow me to stay next to you, to serve you and care for you. That's all I ask for. Of course, if I could have a place within your heart as well, that would make me very happy. Also, I look forward to attending to Young Miss at night from now on as well."
Hearing Sarah's passion-filled confession, I felt my heart flutter warmly.
If I think about it, she didn't have any bad intentions towards me. OF course, doing it with me like that was somewhat unethical, but... after hearing all that, if I could remain indifferent towards Sarah, that would make me a rock, not human.
As I have already made up my mind to live to the fullest, I don't wish to refuse Sarah's wishes. Since I don't plan on holding myself down with just a single partner, having Sarah to keep me company doesn't sound like a bad idea.
Yeah, Mom had me drugged and all... honestly, I can't blame her. She is my mother after all. Whatever she does, it's all with me in consideration. I got laid in the end, bottom line is that. And the sex felt amazing too!
Actually, I feel kind of happy to be liked by other women, especially when Sarah has been the first and only one to look and feel that way towards me. If she likes me for real, then who am I to complain? And I would be depending on her for a lot of things in the future too, so... yeah, it's all right.
As I settled my thoughts, hugging Sarah's slim waist and patted her head gently, my eyes drifted towards the entrance of the room.
No, towards the slightly opened gap in the door... wait, what?!
H-Helen? What the hell is she doing outside my room so late at night?
I just rescued her today, so after going through prolonged hardships, she should have been sleeping at the maid dorms, but... she is here? My future secretary and currently appointed personal guard, Helen Sprigs, happens to be spying on me getting intimate with my maid...
What the heck is this situation? And, why is she gawking at Sarah's and my naked bodies glued together?
As her eyes finally met mine, Helen quickly ran off... without properly closing the door. Yeah, my new guard is a peeping tom, or is she? Did she come here just to ask me about something?
Then, wouldn't that turn me from her saviour, noble lady, to a perverted lady who sleeps with her subordinates?!
Oh lord, let's hope that's not the case. Still, why do I feel so guilty right now?
Ah! How frustrating. Never mind, let me enjoy the embrace of this soft and warm woman for now. Yeah... let's deal with all that mess tomorrow. Treating Sarah well from now on is essential. My first woman deserves it.
I promise to cherish you well, too, Sarah. Let's stay happy together, just like right now.
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W-What did I just witness?
The Young Lady... is into girls? Does she not like men? And, is her noble family fine with this?
A million thoughts ran through my mind as I ran back to my newly assigned room. Entering it, I quickly shut the door and stood still with my back against it.
My heart jumped around in my chest, but I wasn't sure if that was due to fright or... astonishment.
The woman in bed with the Young Lady... wasn't she the personal maid of the Young Lady who guided me around the estate earlier in the day? She had been patient and polite to me when she guided me, especially when I felt anxious from coming to an unfamiliar place.
And I was so surprised when I realized how lax the surveillance was over me. If I had wanted to, I could have easily escaped the estate within minutes.
And yet, unlike how I thought things would go, I stuffed my face with the tasty food served and lounged around in my room until I got bored and decided to take a walk around the dorm. I slowly began to feel like I kind of belonged to the estate, as a member of the servants.
The Young Lady hadn't shown any disdain like the other nobles that I had known, and she wasn't acting haughty around any other servants either. And, when I talked to the other servants and overheard a few maids gossiping, I found out that the Young Lady was very popular among the servants of the estate.
For even the lowest servants to speak about the Young Lady so positively, then she definitely qualified as a master worth serving under.
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