"Husband…you are finally here in my quarters. Please allow me to serve you…you really have no idea how much suffering I have endured in your absence. Look at my hands; these are the scars left my be trying to claw my way out of this very room and…" "Is this how you want to spend your night with me? By showing me these ugly scars of yours?" "But your wife…" "She has treatment for her scars and always covers them up in front of me; and she never uses them to covey herself as the victim because she knows full well that she isn't, so why don't you try a new trick?" "Forgive me husband; you can treat my ignorance as my retribution and…." "Tell me about your family." "My family put me to work as soo as I could walk to relieve us of my father's never ending gambling debts. I have always wanted a child myself to be raised in a home where he would be treated like a Prince, and for that I shall endure any hardship and…" "A son to be raised as a Prince, how wonderful that sounds already. My son will never endure suffering from my hand but I will not spoil him either; not like how Hwi spoils his son…." "My Lord, of course we can…" "I am talking abut the child that I am expoing with my wife, the child that everyone in the palace knows that I am having so I dare anyone to harm him. And as for you; you used to be very submissive to me and now you black every question that I have for you. Why do you think I have no relationship with you at all?" "Surely if you marry me, then I will be as submissive as you want me to be, even more so than your stubborn wife. Both of you; one is recklessly impulsive and the other one is calm; one attacks whilst the other defends. You both compliment each other very well, that is why it is so hard to break you both apart." "Whilst yourself on the other hand sell your miseries to taint other's reputation just as your Mistress Han taught you how to do so and rather well at that. So much so that I cannot publicly refuse you just in case the public cash wind of this matter and exaggerate it any further. If I wanted to, I could rather easily have you locked up in some remote village and kill you if you take a single step outside of it."
"My Lord, why are we bringing her up in this discussion at all? Why don't I light up some of your favourite insane sticks instead and serve you some more tea…" "What on earth is that vile smell? It is too heavy, take it out of here…" Everyday was a struggle and it hurt to be alive. I waited each moment in that home for my life to be taken away from me. I had to numb my heart. Living was exhuming and I didn't fit in anywhere. And now here I was in yet another woman's quarters who was trying her hardest to seduce me for everything that I had inherited from my father. Maybe that was why Yeon never asked me for anything and I was more than willing to give her anything. But if I was penniless, would Yeon even want me as a potential husband? She had lived in poverty her entire life and maybe my wealth provided her with some relief, but she had proved herself to me when she broke free of my home that she was more than capable of living without such wealth, but it was different now that she was pregnant with my child that would have a higher status than her own. I had to fund my home and do my bit for my brother=in=law by helping him fund his village and have some left over to spoil the children in my small circle of friends, so I had to keep the wealth going, even if it attracted me to all sort of greedy whores like this one. I had lost count of how many women had approached me so far, and I had even forgotten their names, but I always also begging to loose interest in the life that I had with men and I needed to put a stop to all of these women coming and going in my life before my wife broke away from me due to the pure frustration of it all. I had to commend her really, I had no idea how on earth I would handle it if Yeon herself got close to another man…
"My Lord! Are you alright? You have just broken the tea cup and your hands! They must be burning…what was it? Was the tea not to your liking? Lord Nam?" "My Lord, there are a few people from the palace who are waiting for you in your office. It s quite an urgent matter it seems." "Very well, I shall be right there…" "What is the rush My Lord? Surely they can wait for a few minutes more…" "Are you out of your mind woman? Do you really have so little sense that you think I can make any palace official wait for me? Who am I now to make anyone from there wait for me? Servant? Go to my wife and ask her to pack the evidence for me, she will know what I am talking about."
"My Lord please wait! Look, I thought that I would be fine by being your concubine in name only, but it turns out that I was wrong, so can you please promise me that you will return to me after you have concluded your business? My life would be worse than death if you reject me so quickly without giving me the chance to redeem myself to you and…" "you were the one who willingly agreed to it, and a change of emotions n your side alone cannot change the deal that we have or our mind at all. My heart is closed to the world apart from a chosen few and that will not change either." "And you really cannot treat me like before either? On h every day that you made me you concubine all of those months ago? You are all I think about and you were the only man who has ever been nice to me…" "If only you knew what I was really like, then you should have shunned me along with the rest of the world. Only 1 person have ever truly seen who I am and accepts me, and that is more than enough for me, now let me go. I will even release you into the care of my cousin and…" No! Please do not pair me up with that loser; he is the greatest mistake I have ever made and I never wish to set my eyes upon him ever again!" "Have some self respect woman and let go of me! Do you wish to ruin me in the place any further?" "But we could have been together a long time ago! Please leave me with something…" "Get off of me before I do something to you that I cannot take back!" I had to physically push that woman off of me and I ran out of there before I would be the one to help tend to her as she fell onto the floor and would predictably make a whole scene out of it. "I just do not wish to be bullied anymore and I want to live the next half of my life on comfort, you really will not fulfil this wish for me?" "This wish I can fulfil it if you give me what I need from you in return. So before I return myself, kneel on the floor as your punishment for crossing the line. You are a concubine in name but you will always be my servant since I paid for your freedom and willingly gifted you things that you were never entitled to receive in the first place. And your black magi charge on top of all of that makes you a jinx that I can expose at anytime. Having you near me and my family is a risk that I am willing to take on for the right price, and with The Mistress Han on the loose when she knows that I have you an opportunity that I will never give her, you really need me more than anyone at the moment, so think about the last opportunity that I am giving you. Let us go servant's, and tell my wife to stay in her quarters and to wait for my return."
This had never happened before, but just the mere mention of the palace was starting to instil a sense of fear and panic within me that I haven't felt for almost a decade after my father's passing. I knew that Yeon was more attached to the person that I was back then under his roof but as for myself, I never wished to revisit the weak person that I was back then who was simply unable to reunite her with her brother sooner and eloping right there and then instead of dragging her through all of my ambitious plots that clearly gave her the mind and confidence to get through her own goals that almost took her away from me several times. Just what right did I have to be angry at her when I was the one who clearly encouraged all of her bad behaviours and I may have indulged her more than I should have. But after the isolation and mockery that I had to endure all over again in my wife's absence, I simply had nothing left in myself to continue working in such a toxic place and environment where one's desires could devour you. I had achieved my ultimate goal of staring a family and that was my new priority; even if I had to walk away from such a monstrous place to protect my people from it all.
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"My Lady, you must tired from your service. Let me serve you some tea before you retire for bed…" "Service? Indeed I am tired from my service tonight…I am already a concubine, so why do my quarters look no better than the maid's quarters that I just came from in the brothel! Why is Seo Yeon the only one who gets room of luxury? Just because she is pregnant! What it so special about that? Anyone and every girl can get pregnant, so why…why is everyone bullying me! Just because I want bette for myself! Why do The Nam clan have to be frugal and simple use when I join their family! I haven't even been granted a fucking concubine ceremony because my husband looks like he is terrified and uncomfortable with other women that it drives me crazy! He just wants me to have an empty title so he can threaten his wife and use me to make her jealous! I am stuck between a man that I want but does not want me, and a man who wants me to soothe his ego in the palace of all places!" "My Lady! The Young Master Nam is making his way towards us right now! You are not even full changed yet!" "What the hell! Oh my god, this is all that I need! Quickly delay him whilst I get dressed and…" "Young Master please! You cannot just barge in here and do as you please! Please leave us alone before anyone finds us or sees us….Young Master Nam!" "Where is she! Tell her to come out and see me right now! I know that my cousin has left for the palace and that he probably won't come back here tonight! So let me see her! If my uncle wants to waste her, then I surely shall not! Or d I need to give her extravagant gifts to make her open up her legs to me just like she used to a few months ago! And why don't we tell our love story to the entire world, what do you say? About how you tricked me and seduced me on the very first night that we met and…" "I will kill you if you say another word!" "And I will not marry anybody unless you are coming with me, so make your choice!"
"You want to marry me to humiliate me and drag me to that toxic pit that even your own cousin is trying t escape, she why should I jump in with you? Is it because I am the only company you have that is inferior to you, so that you can soothe that fragile ego of yours?" "You will become my official concubine in the palace and have the honour to bare my children, how could you possibly be so ungrateful you unruly bitch!" "If I am so unruly then what could you possibly want from me? Let me stay here and serve your parents and cousin in peace! Or do I have to kill myself to never hear your whiny little voiceover again!" "I will not go to the palace without you so do not make me repeat myself once again!" "Do it then, kill yourself in my uncle's bed as it is the closest that you will ever reach him! Just get over here so that I can…" "No! Let me go…!"