Even those things had limitations, and they could not cover everything.
Everything around Ash seemed to be completely out of her control, no matter how hard she tried.
The power she craved seemed so far away despite all of the effort she had put in and the sacrifices she had made.
She was progressing steadily, but she still did not feel too powerful.
Her position in the world was the lowest of the low, so that proved how very little control she had.
Not only could she do very little for herself, but she also lacked the confidence to say that she could control enough to affect her surroundings or those with whom she had some connection.
She had little confidence in being able to protect herself if something went wrong, just like she had little confidence in being able to protect others.
Her mother and Max had become perfect examples of just that, as both times, she was completely helpless without having any way to prevent anything.
