His head is in the hollow of my neck, I could feel warm tears on my neck. " I am sorry " said Advik in a broken tone. His voice is sad, so I didn't tried to leave and lied still. Again he said " I am so sorry. "
His voice coming as a whisper, it contains too much pain. " I know I am wrong and you have all the rights to be angry with me. But please forgive me. " he continued and now I feel that I went to far.
" Husband, we are married. If you dont support my decisions than how will we manage in future? you dont trust my parenting skills? " I asked him. I have to make sure that from now he belives me. Or its going to be a problem in the future. Something that I want to avoid.
" who said I dont trust you? I totally trust you and will support you. " he said to me. Things will not go as I want if I remain too strict with him. For my future plans I have to remain sweet with him.
" when I was talking about sending our daughter to school...you didn't support me. You hurt me husband " I told him. " I am very sorry . I will try not hurt you. From now I will listen to you but mishti don't be mad." he said in a very sweet way and I guess I can't be mad with him anymore.
I turned towards him and his eyes are teary. And how he manages to look that cute while crying ? I dried his tears with my fingers, his cheeks are soo soft. He caught my hand mid air and kiss my fingers. No one ever came soo close to me.
I felt shiver in my whole body. I pulled my hand away from him. He lightly pulled my chin to face him. " Are you still angry with me ?" he asked softly. " No , husband I am not angry with you. " I told him.
" But husband aren't you angry with me? " I asked him. And he gave me a very confused look. " How you find strength to say sorry to me? Don't you hate me? " I asked him straight. I want to know why he is soo good with me.
" Why shouldn't I be good to my wife? why should I hate you mishti? " he asked utterly confused. " Husband I didn't wanted to marry you first. I harshly talked with you. Didn't care for your kids. Took you away from your family. Why don't you hate me? I am not perfect for you. " I told him, its all ture. The original character of the story really did all that.
He laughed and said " No, I don't hate you wifey. Its understandable that you didn't want to mary a man with four kids. No one would agree but you were forced to marry me. Casted away by your family like good and not like a human. So I understand you not wanting to be warm and loving. " he said and shame on you trishna for not loving such a cute man.
" I understand that you didn't wanted my kids at first. Its hard to accept someone's children's at first. But when we left the main house you brought them with you. You didn't left them behind. And now you're loving them more than me....so why should I hate you? " he said while removing a strand of hair from my forehead. I felt shiver on the place his fingers touched my forehead.
" And about being away from the main house...well, its not bad to have some privacy with my wife. " Said Advik to me. Since when he became such a flirty husband? what happened to that cold aloof doctor?
" Husband, thank you so much for understanding me. All my life I struggled to be seen, to be treated with little respect. I wanted to study but my family didn't allow me. They wanted their sons to study but not their daughter. My little brother supported me and taught but it was very limited. " I told him. He must know trishna's pain so that he understands why I want to do what I planned for purvi.
" I wanted to do something in my life, be something and thats why I wasn't interested in getting married. But my family saw me as a burden and of course they shifted it on your shoulders. Thats why I want purvi to study, I just don't want her to be a only a wife and a mother. Those are also very precious stage for a girl. But that shouldn't be her only identity. I want her to be able to select her faith herself. To be strong and independent...everything that I could never be. " I told him. I really want to set an example and raise them well.
" You have my whole support, mishti I will support you in your decisions. You will never be alone. " Said Advik. " And you're no less my dear mishti. We all dependent on you. You're real support system of this house. If you want to do anything you like just let me know and I will help you. " Said Advik and I hugged him tightly
" Trishna since everything got sorted and we have no misunderstanding between us lets agree on few terms - 1. we will not hide anything from each other, 2. Try to resolve conflicts as early as possible, not let it rot for another day. 3. After every fight we will try to resolve our problem and sleep here holding each other. 4. You may fight, scold me but no silent treatment...it makes my world dark.
Your silence pains me. " He said, his voice almost breaking at the end.
" I will follow them all. Sorry for hurting you. It was really hard to avoid you. " I told him.
" Lets give our relationship a chance trishna." he said and I nodded. I feel soo happy today. Hope everything goes well.