This is why she panicked the moment she knew Tamara returned to the organization; she felt abandoned and feared retaliation in a few years.
By turning around and clinging to Lance's leg, it was like stepping onto a level-up booster, directly breaking through her bottleneck, giving her a sense of security.
She had been with Lance for some time and was very clear about that feeling.
Although she envied it, she knew she couldn't actively seek it.
She understood Lance's character: kind and generous to his people, full of patience. No one could provide her with warmth like he did, something neither the organization nor her teacher could give.
But once he became disgusted, that warmth would transform into a bone-chilling coldness, a chill she didn't want to experience again.
This situation still left her uneasy after all, for selfishness is human nature, and not many can overcome this instinct.
