Sun and Fall were walking together alone at a random spot in the field trip park.
Fall (14): Sorry for bothering you and your friends.
Sunz (14): It's nothing, the Teacher insisted you join us, so there is really nothing you can do. Besides, my friends, they are doing other activities anyway, so it sucks for you to be stuck with me.
Fall (14): Well, Teach only insisted that I join you guys because, let's be honest, I don't have any friends and didn't hang out with anyone on this trip.
Sunz (14): Let's not exaggerate too much. I don't know much about the friends part, but you were having fun hanging out with everyone in the class.
Fall (14): Sunz, you do live up to that other title of yours.
Sunz (14): What are you talking about? What other title?
Fall (14): You are a Clueless Boy!
Sunz (14): Well, that makes sense. I don't know much about anything going on in class.
Fall (14): You sure that is the only thing you don't know about?
Sunz (14): What are you hinting at?
Fall (14): You see, your group of friends recently has a new member, and since then, you've been hanging out alone at our desk more often.
Sunz (14): Well, we just ran out of spots in the game we play, so one has to sit out.
Fall (14): Sure.
*grab Sunz's hand and start running to the nearest bench*
Sunz (14): What is this for?
Fall (14): Just sit down, I'm doing this for your benefit, you can't be this naive anymore. Someone has to say this straight to your face.
Sunz quiet sit down, and so does Fall.
Fall (14): The last year and a half of sitting next to you, I learned a lot about you. You have no dream, you don't care about a lot of stuff, you accidentally pick up fights with teachers due to your low motivation in life, and you say, "I don't know." a lot.
"But, you know what makes you happy, the video you watch, the music you listen to, your favorite subject, and your friends."
Sunz (14): Ok… I don't know what is going on.
Fall (14): I know I don't have any friends, but I do think of you as a friend. And I hate seeing you trying to integrate into a friend group that no longer fits you. What I'm trying to say is-
The memory suddenly stops.
…
Sword: What are you doing?
Sunz: That is the perfect place to stop this memory, and I can tell you the rest. After this event and a few months later, I finally realized that. In the last year in that friend group, all I've been doing is following them around, trying to be part of the group. I didn't know that I was slowly drifting off.
"I was still thinking of them as friends, but they were thinking of me as a classmate. We were still friends, talked when we had the chance or when a common topic came up. But, I started to enjoy being alone, doing my own stuff with the company of Fall next to me, who was also just doing her own stuff."
Sword: So, did you have any regret?
Sunz: Regret? What are you talking about? Of course not, I had fun with the 4 years I was in that friend group. Everything that happened in those 4 years made me who I am the next year and now. All the squabbles I have with the female students in my class, all the unnecessary, disrespectful arguments against a few teachers that can be ended with me shutting the fuck up.
"I never regret any of the actions that I take. They created me, but the same goes for the actions that I didn't take."
"…"
"I regret the action that I didn't take because I was a fucking coward."
The memory switched to a scene where Sunz and Fall are leaning against a wall in the school yard with their backpack on them, and many students are walking and running around.
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Sunz (14): How did you do on the final?
Fall (14): I did excellent, of course. How about you?
Sunz (14): Good on the subjects that I'm good at, and so-so on the subjects I hate.
Fall (14): Hey, all you need is enough score to pass… hey, is your dad picking you up again?
Sunz (14): Yeah, he is… umm, what high school are you planning to join?
Fall (14): Why do you ask that?
Sunz (14): Just asking.
Fall (14): With my stellar academic record, I have plenty of options. You?
Sunz (14): There is a school that was recently renovated, about 10 minutes of driving on my dad's motorcycle, and my academic record is good enough to join that school.
Fall (14):…
Sunz (14):…
Both were tightly clutching their phone, but only Sword could see this, while Sunz only saw what his past self saw. Then Sunz's phone rang, and the call was from his father.
Sunz (14): Sorry, got to go now. See ya.
Fall (14): Oh yeah, see ya…
…
…
Sunz: That's my regret. I was too much of a coward to ask for her number to keep in touch, which resulted in me forgetting her.
Sword: On the bright side, you now remember everything.
Sunz: Yeah, and it's all thanks to you.
Sword: Don't thank me, kid. Thank yourself, you wanted this, you didn't wait, you forced yourself to dream and found these memories.
Sunz: Sure, I guess, thanks me. Now there is nothing in the past bother me.
Sword: You sure?
Sunz:… Yep, nothing else anyway, see you.
A door randomly appears in the room, Sunz walks through it, and disappears.
Sword: Well, let's see if both of you were thinking the same.
*resume the memory*
…
Fall watched Sunz walking through the sea of students and disappear in front of her eyes.
"I'm such a coward. All I do is talk and talk. I did not even take the initiative to ask for his number. Why can't we both be more confident in ourselves?"
*tears forming in her eyes, and she immediately covers both of her eyes with her arm*
"No, don't cry, be mad at yourself, don't be sad… I promise I'll be more forward with my action, I won't hesitate anymore to not regret anything like today."
"We have the address of every student in our class, 10 minutes. I can find which school you will go to… please don't forget me, please see me how I see you. As a friend and not a classmate."
…
Sword stops the memory and turns the whole room into a dark void.
"One coward is a negative, two cowards make a positive."