Love
We played for the better part of the day. I don't know what this brat has gone through but the princess actually thinks she must force someone for them to ageee to play with her. And in my case that's right because I am an old man in a kid's body. But Cvela, the stupid child, got into it quickly. And together with the little princess they made my life absolutely hell. Worse Kina and the other maid were watching so I had to stay true to script that I was a normal child. I'd aspired to be an actor at some point in my former life anyway but never got to realize that dream, so maybe this ain't that bad right?; I am jut playing a role here. Who am I kidding, who wants to do this?
I had lunch there, and because of how long we played we were exhausted and fell asleep after. The girls slept first. This girl..... I thought with mixed feelings; Celestine slept holding my hand. I wanted to jerk it away but seeing the peaceful face of the girl, my heart softened. Ah, it can't be helped, I am a good man after all, and she reminded me of my kids when they were young. Joshua and Katie, whatever is up with them? They had cry for my death hadn't they? What's this feeling? I never liked kids that aren't mine!!! Am I 'getting old?'
Well it doesn't matter I guess. Besides, this is boss Viktora's child; I'd benefit more by hugging this lap. Why shouldn't I just mind control this girl to obey me so I could strengthen my position in the future anyway? That dangerous thought crossed my mind, but even if I am an 'evil bastard', which I am, I am too scared of Viktora to try anything. With her powers she'd probably sense what I did to her daughter, and is bye bye to the living after that. Or rather, I'd wish I was dead.
Thinking like that I fell asleep.
"Ah, dear sister, aren't our kids cute together?"
"They surprisingly got along.... hmm; I guess it's not that surprising. Celestine don't have anyone her age to play with."
"What about the kids of your vassals?"
"Because of that reason I told you about, I don't trust them. And they avoid me either way. You let your son play with the children of your vassals?"
"Is anything wrong with that? Besides he has many cousins...."
"I am not criticizing you Resfiya. Come, it seems our blabbering have woken them."
Celestine stirred and turned. I had my back to the two women so they couldn't know I was awake but I stirred too. Cvela seemed to have been removed from the room by someone. Mother came and pick me up. "That's enough playing for one day Sainty." She said.
I just nodded groggily. That was a better sleep than I had for months was all I thought.
Later that night mother sat by the fire place staring at it quietly in thought. Kina walked into the room with a towel in her hand. "I have prepared the room mistress," she said. "Mistress?!"
Mother looked up at her as if startled. "What?" She snapped.
Kina frowned. "What are you thinking about again mistress? You know it's not good for your health and will solve nothing after all. I have been talking to you but you heard nothing."
Mother glared up at the maid. "I am thinking," she said coldly. "Of my son's future. Viktora will have him be a catalyst to her wars in exchange for her protection."
Kina glanced at my direction, on the couch facing mother, but I quickly closed my eyes before she did. She thought I was asleep.... Foolish maid, hehe hehe. "What do you mean mistress?"
Mother rose to her feet. "Think about it. Sainty has claim to the lord position of Chyralis, the neighboring land of the fief of the Coldfires."
"Isn't that what you wanted?"
Mother frowned. "I have been thinking Kina. What if you were right and this is not the best for my son? Wouldn't a peaceful life be better comparably to a one of blood and risks even if the later leads to power?"
Kina was silent for some time, finally she asked, "will your sister let us walk out now?"
"I doubt it," mother said quietly. "I have already sold my son to the devil."
"Ah, It's not that bad mistress. Maybe I am wrong too. Saint is born a Highvoid, any attempt at peace might end him. You set this path for him, this is no time to abandon him."
"You are right," mother sniffed wiping unshed tears. "I cannot be weak in matters concerning my son. He'll not find me a lacking mother."
I closed my eyes quickly, at her resolve, in extreme grief. Since I was reborn to this world I have found it impossible to trust anyone, even myself, I was always fearful of everyone. But looking at Resfiya's eyes I saw unconditional love. The love of a mother they said is as such. Still however I might start calling myself after 'Six' years of being called that, I am not really her son am I? I'm a perversive replacement at best. She'd most likely be repulsed if she knew my true nature. That's my secret though. I have a firm belief of paying good will with good will; Because of that, 'I will never be a lacking son,' I promised myself.
And maybe many things has happened and many will but for this night I was just content with closing my eyes and sleep. Because I survived yet another day. Tomorrow I will get back to being a bag of nerves.
End of arc one.
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