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There was a long silence as Narumi went through all of these thoughts in her head, long enough for several minutes to pass and for them to reach the northern-most section of the eastern sector. Natsuki was looking over at her sister worriedly, wondering what kind of resolution her twin would come to.
A small smile graced Narumi's face as she looked over to the redhead. "Thanks Natsuki, I-I think I understand things a little better now...I-I'm also sorry for saying accusing you of not feeling the same way as I did after all this time...I didn't even consider your feelings or what anyone else was going through..."
"No need to apologize." Natsuki replied as she shook her head side to side. "You were completely justified in what you thought...Just don't assume that every person will have the same views of the world that you do. Personal beliefs and ideals are derived from our past experiences, if you don't share those experiences, then your interpretation of reality may be different than another's...Even though you and I have pretty similar experiences, doesn't mean we'll always have the same opinions or react the same to everything...We're two different people after all, even if we are twins!"
"We're you quoting Nii-san just now?" Narumi was slightly amused, a compete one-eighty as to how she had been feeling just minutes before.
"He does have a way with words, don't you think?"
"Hm, he always does know just what to say at the exact right time." Narumi responded, though when she looked over, she noticed that her sister was already in one of her fantasies with a bit of drool coming out of the corner of her mouth. A shiver went down Narumi's spine, she didn't even want to know what her twin was imagining. On the topic of family, something did come to mind though. "Hey, Natsuki...?"
"Hm, what is it?" Said girl responded as she turned around once more.
"What do you think Tou-san and Kaa-chan would've said if I'd had this conversation with them instead of you?" Narumi asked, wanting to know if her sister had been having the same doubts as she had been having.
Natsuki paused for a minute to think about that before coming up with her answer. "They probably would have said something along the lines of 'Some people are just better at covering up their feelings than others. In fact you should feel guilt and remorse every time you take another's life, it's what makes us human...If you don't even feel a little remorse for killing someone...then you're not even human at all.'...Something similar to that."
"..." Narumi stared silently at her sister for a moment, studying her reaction.
Seeing the look that Narumi was giving her, Natsuki waved her arms in front of her defensively. "Don't get me wrong, I love Tou-san and Kaa-chan, but lately I've just been seeing everything a bit clearer and...I guess I'm just having trouble believing everything that we've been taught up till now, haven't you been feeling the same way?"
Natsuki had been thinking about thinking about the time she had learned the truth about Kurama during the invasion and the numerous times that they had conversed afterwards, and while he hadn't been very forthcoming with telling her everything she wanted to know, she had learned more about the history of this world from him than from her own parents.
"...Yeah...That's why I asked..." Narumi responded dejectedly.
Natsuki looked over at her sister with a wide-eyed expression. Out of the two of them Narumi was far more stubborn and thick-headed and loyal to a fault. That was why she hadn't told her about the meeting with Kurama yet and why the chakra had been ripped out of Nawaki. Now that Narumi openly admitted that she didn't have the blind faith in their parents like she previously had, it might be easier to tell her the truth about Kurama and the Bijū.
Though that talk would have to wait for another time.
"I love them...but I can't help but feel that they're...I don't know, subconsciously trying to use us to further their own goals...I don't mean to make them sound evil or manipulative or anything, but think about it. Pushing us to become shinobi since we could speak, telling us bedtime stories about how shinobi were heroes and fought selflessly for their village, pushing us towards the dream of becoming Hokage, that stupid prophecy, making us Ero-sennin's apprentices...I just can't help but feel like they were setting all this up so that we would fulfill their dreams of finding peace because they couldn't...I guess I can kind of understand why they want to find such a thing now, but..." Natsuki trailed of at the end, trying to find the exact words she wanted.
"But...?" Narumi asked, trying to push her to spit out the rest of what she wanted to say.
Narumi had an idea of what her sister wanted to say, these were some of the very things that Naruto spoke of with their father and Jiraiya just after the chūnin promotional ceremony. She hadn't really paid much attention to what he had said then until now.
"...It's noble and all, trying to find world peace...but... the world will always be at war, there will always be some kind of conflict...it's just human nature, ya know. That doesn't mean it's right, but to find peace you'd have to completely redefine the human nature of every single person in the world...and even then there will be people who will stand against what you're trying to do and lead some kind of rebellion, leading to yet another war...I guess what I'm trying to say is that conflict is inevitable and that won't be changing anytime soon...Just look at the recent invasion. We had been in a peace time before they decided to invade to show their power and secure a location at the top as one of the strongest villages...If people are so willing to risk the lives of others just for superficial reasons like power political standing, do you really see peace in this world coming anytime soon?"
Before Narumi even had a chance to respond, a large crash of thunder resounded through the town followed by a flash of lightning, causing the two of them to jump at the loud outburst and turn towards the direction it came from.