My eye silk falls off. At the moment that Kier's lips touched mine. I can feel that my whole system are shaking, this sensation is similar when Akeldama kissed me for the first time.
"Your highness—"
"It's Kier, Princess Delaney." Kier said when he distanced himself to mine.
He's drunk, maybe this is just the effect of alcohol to his system, also. This isn't right, what he's doing is not right. I don't want to think or expect more from him.
Kier is a friend of mine, and I want to keep in that way, I don't know if I can see him as a love interest, and it's awkward if he will become one.
"Stop, this isn't right, Kier." Both of my hand pressed to his chest, and I gently closed my eyes.
He's nice at the beginning, I am aware of it, but for me, Kier is such a nice guy having him is too much, I don't want anything but peace.
Far from all of the people that I am avoiding, and to live freely, just me and my dreams. But how is it possible, if I started to get use in this kind of life, slowly adapting the life that I used to hate.
"I want you, my brother know that I came with him because of you, and Princess Hannah is what he wanted, and you're the reason why I came at Drivike empire." My jaw dropped, what Kier said is a big revelation to me.
"My brother was tricked by your father, and gave you, instead of Princess Hannah, so even I have no choice after that." Kier hold my hand place it to his cheeks, gently close his eyes and enjoying my touch.
"I love you, Princess Delaney, I do." Kier opened his eyes and look straight to mine.
"That's the reason, why my brother tried to get rid of me. Forced me to exile at the empire, because he's afraid that our relationship might get deeper, since I love you at the very beginning." Kier keep explaining and I am still shocked by his revelations.
"I finally decided, that I will let you go, and there's nothing I can do about it, but I promised to myself that if I have a chance, I will grab it, and will never let go of that chance, and this is the chance that I am waiting, my princess." Kier holds the end of my hair, and gently smelled it.
"I will everything for you, anything that you want, I will do it willingly, because I am in love with you that much, but I am willing to wait, just for you, my love." Emperor Kier gently kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes when his lips touches my forehead.
This is the first time that I received a love confession, I am still surprised and didn't anticipate any of this, that is why I don't know and how to react to this kind of situation.
Because all through my life, all I know is to survive at the palace, become laughing stock of nobles and to obey and endure anything, I can't decline or say anything against them.
That's why when I finally left my own country, I feel good and relief, even that my life is at sake, I don't care about it anymore.
But now, this is really new to me. Should I listen to Kier's words? Is he really sincere to all revelations that he just said tonight, or he just said that because he needs me as an empress.
"Kier, I'm sorry. I can't be your empress, I cant." I said and distanced my body to him, I can't see any reaction to his face now, but it seems that he expected my answer tonight.
"Honestly, I didn't ask you to become my empress, I am asking you to become my lover." I can feel the nervousness to his voice, how it shakes and his cheeks went red when he said that.
I chuckled and pat his shoulder.
"I also can't, I don't want to bring humiliation to you, me being your lover isn't even possible, can't you see. I am the cursed princess, while you're the emperor of Gribe empire, we are like heaven and hell."
"You live to the highest, and I belong to the lowest."
"Then, let me live at the lowest with you, I will choose you no matter what, because that's what I want." Kier walk to my direction, I walk back until I reached the wall, he pinned me there, his right hand is above my head.
"You can't reason our status, because no matter your condition is, you're still the princess of Drivike empire, you have the royal blood and I am willing to do anything, just to win you, and your answer." Kier is being hard headed. How can I tell him, that I don't want this kind of life.
"Kier, you don't understand my point, this isn't the life that I want," I said while looking straight to his eyes, feeling the pressure between us, because of the conversation that Kier and I are talking here at the balcony.
"Then, I will be there with you, at the life that you will choose, whatever it is." I bit my lower lip and took a deep breath.
Why he liked me this much?
"Even that means, leaving your own countrymen, your empire and your responsibilities?" I said and he's still looking at my eyes.
"Yes, I don't care about them, it's you that all I wanted, Princess Delaney." My tears started to fall, and I can't stop myself to cry.
I covered my mouth to stop my sobs. But Kier locked me to his strong arms.
"We will run away right now, just the two of us and nothing else. I also know that you hate this kind of life. But still adapting it, because your father said so, but this time. You're free at everything you desire, you're the only one who can control your life now, Delaney." I feel safe and every words are making me feel relived.
"Thank you, Kier." I said and heard his heart beat. It's wild and rapid, he's nervous, but still manage to help me to calm right now.
I don't know, but I feel overwhelmed that, mixed emotions. Am I capable of loving a person, to feel this kind of feeling. I am unaware of this kind of feelings.
"Thank you." I whispered and let my eyes fall, I am sleepy.
Kier's POV
My heart is beating fast, while Delaney is laying at my chest, I am holding her waist and I can feel that her breath is getting deeper.
When I look at her sleeping face, I will be forever feel like it was my first time to see her beauty.
It surprises me everytime that I feel and saw her. Like a magical incident that happened in my life.
The way that other people describe her, it's not the same as what people see her.
Like an epitome of beauty, I want to become selfish, even once.
This position, I don't want any of it. I also want a simple life with someone that I want to spend the rest of my life, to have a peaceful environment for me and my future family.
This luxurious life isn't for me, I know that when I was a kid. I'm competing and most kf nobels are using me for their own motives.
But now, I finally find reason to live freely and become happy with my decisions, it's because of Delaney.
At some part, I am happy that I can be selfish when it's come to Delaney, but when she becomes the finance of my brother, my world collide.
The first time I saw her was when I am a kid. Have a vacation at the neighborhood empire, which is Drivike.
I used to hate travelling, but when I saw her at the field of rosemaries, without her eye cover, I was mesmerized.
At that age, I thought it's impossible to like a person that has no idea of your existence, but it turns out that I used to have a vacation every year at Drivike empire. Saw Delaney every time I was there, getting more gorgeous when she's aging, not until the rosemary field was closed. Because of the order of ruthless emperor of Drivike.
I feel bad that I will never see Delaney after that, but when my brother ask a marriage proposal to Princess Hannah, Delaney's half sister, I got excited.
I am eager to travel, just to see Delaney, because I find it as an opportunity to have interaction with her, but when I am at Drivike. My world collide, she's my brother's fiance.
All I feel at that time is everything that I wanted fade away instantly, I have no choice but to accept that there's nothing I can do about it anymore.
But I still find a way, to have an interaction with Delaney, she's sweet and her voice is like an angel from above.
I saw her at the garden, without silk eye cover. She's afraid when she saw me, but that time, my feelings got deeper.
Day by day, my eagerness to own her is getting strong, but who am I to hide her, if she wasn't mine to begin with?
Sometimes, I asked gods, why I can't have the woman that I want, why it feels like having her is forbidden?
When Delaney is finally here at the Gribe empire, I tried my best to hide my feelings, but Delaney doesn't see or feel it, but the nobels know.
They pushed my brother, and I also feel it, my brother find Delaney attractive, grew feelings and he's fully aware that I love Delaney, that's why he pull some trigger to exile me at the Gribe empire.
I can't help but to get mad at my brother, he know that I won't do anything with Delaney, I am just enjoying her company, nothing else.
But he's selfish, and that time, I want to tell Delaney what I feel, but I can't. I know that she will reject me, and she have her obligation, to become the wife of my brother.
That's why I bid my goodbye with Delaney, at her wedding day. I want to kiss her so bad and lock her in my arms, abduct her so I can call her mine.
But I didn't, I watched her walk to the aisle, my tears fall, my chest clenched and I want to stop them.
I may sound bad, but when my brother falls, and the mercenary king appear, there's a relief that the wedding will stop, and Delaney will become free, because I feel that she doesn't want any of it. She's just obeying her father because that's what the emperor wants.
Until I became emperor, and when the said that Delaney should marry me, my heart races, I got excited even though that it's them, the reason why almost got exile at my own country.
But my heart falls, when Delaney said that she doesn't want to become an empress anymore, it's because of her lackings at being an empress, and the time that she had for learning is not enough.
She have the point, but I know that Delaney can do it, she has brain, it's just she doesn't want to show it around.
But now, she's here at my arms, sleeping peacefully and agreed on what I proposed, I can finally feel the relief and excitement.
I can call her mine now, and this is the beginning of my dreams with Delaney.
"I love you, my dear Delaney." I gently kissed Delaney's forehead and she didn't move, her soft snores sounds cute in my ears.
"I can't see myself without you, my dear Delaney." I seal it with a kiss, before leaving the balcony, using the hidden path and went to my room.
Carefully place Delaney and lay beside her.
Oh what a dream of mine, came true.