To want to indulge in reckless mischief, to obtain higher quality relief and pleasure, one must become stronger.
But if you want to become stronger, you must keep a low profile during the process, at least not go crazy as you did in the beginning.
Spider found herself in a dilemma for some time.
In the end, she chose a more balanced approach, which was to slightly restrain herself during her future growth. If she couldn't contain herself, she'd try her best to protect herself unless she was totally overwhelmed, in which case survival was still the priority.
