it was a fresh morning again to feel blessed and alive again , there laid me under a big yellow umbrella . the sun was fresh and worm there I stood up and took a work by the pool side to relax my head a bit , and return back to where I was sited. it was the weekend to relax and feel cozy , I felt alive again I felt everything was moving according to how I have tabled it . it was past 7 I was packing up getting ready to go home , I reached home laid on the bed thinking of how monday was gonna be for me . I hated mondays , because Mondays always made me feel the rest days would be like it . I stood up and went for a glass of water . I went back to my room thinking of what to do . finally I remembered my dairy .
I had so many things to tell my dairy so many things that had gone wrong during the past few months , so many ups and down I held my dairy on my hands thinking of what to start with and how to write them down . I couldn't just bear the memories of yesterday all my pains and hard times I went through . I had so many things to say to my human dairy I had it all hear here ,then I broke down in tears been alone no friends loved ones and family taught me nobody was actually going to stay forever . i lived a life been lonely i stayed all night hoping for a miracle to happen , I decided to face my fears and went outside the physical world there I saw lovely people I was been chased by how I looked and how I am . it was just me all along the line after zuella and zeek left for the states I felt really lonely and cried all night , not because i was weak ,just because have been too strong for all this years . I took a cup of strawberry tea then I paid and went home , I lived in a very secret home were everything seems real then goes back normal again . sat on my bed wondering around I reached out for my phone looking through old times , my pictures and videos with zuella my family and others . I paused for a while and thought of what to do again my dairy again the fear of not writing in my dairy was not just because I couldn't I was not really ready to be emotional . I had so many things in the dairy I didn't let anyone see not even zuella , I had so many issues with her because of it and she finally gave up on forcing me to see it . I had so many years of remembrance in the dairy I taught of it ,it was time to move on face life again ,meeting new people I was finally ready to take a bold step about my life , but dreams of the past kept hunting me it was just like a whisper in my ears , I broke down with the pain in my I had no choice than to burn down d dairy i felt pain all over unending pains that never want to live my life . I burnt the dairy to be free , I was pained cause I had many memories in the dairy but I had no choice I needed to survive without those words ringing in my ears . it was months later I felt refreshed again opened to new things , I was happy I had the chance to move from places I finally kicked the air and decided to travel to the states to meet my best friend after so many years . I was really ready to take a bold step out of life but still I was sacred not because of traveling , I was sacred my dreams of yesterday would hurt me again . I took a deep breath packed my bag called zuella I was coming over , she was so happy to hear the news I left for the states I was super excited to see zuella again after so many years . when I saw her we both busted into tears , tears of joy and happiness I felt really comfortable again living my dad zone to experience life she made life really comfortable for me . it was getting dark I saw how shiny the stars were and wished for happiness all day long and there I went to bed . I slept like a baby and woke up like one there I went to the kitchen to a grab a cup of coffee and went back to my cozy room and slept off again ....