Originally, he was truly devastated by the Eldest Prince, feeling life was no longer worth living, utterly desolate. He even thought that if Jun Ning got into trouble this time, he wouldn't want the position of Crown Prince anymore.
He wanted to withdraw from public life with the Crown Princess Consort, Jing Shu, and Zi Song.
If the Emperor didn't agree, he would feign death to escape.
Being the Crown Prince these years was utterly stifling for him. There wasn't a single day he didn't live under extreme repression, pain, nervous tension, and a state of wishing he was dead.
For years, there wasn't even a glimmer of light in his life, every day was covered with dark clouds.
He was really tired of barely surviving like this, he wanted it to end.
During the days Jun Ning was missing, he had thought it all through.
