Justin's Diary Today
I've never been this nervous. The thought of Mandy suffering made it hard for me to breathe. I don't know why this happened. I wanted to blame myself for allowing her to drive alone. I wanted to hit myself so many times for regretting it all.
For fuck sake!!!
I sat on the floor, then hit my head many times. I don't think hitting myself will change things. Mandy remains lying in the ICU.
"Justin..."
I heard Helena's voice. I don't know how long he's been here. I heard the sound of her heels approaching me. I took a deep breath, looking up at the ceiling, as if asking God to forgive me for my negligence.
"I know you're not okay. But, stop blaming yourself," continued Helena.
I shook my head. "No. All of this is still my fault. If only I had strictly told her not to go, or had dared to escort her, she might have survived. But what? I'm even more concerned with the meeting than her well-being!" I looked at Helena with a look of anger and regret.
