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It felt humiliating. He would do as he pleased before, saying apologies every single time and lowering his head ashamed after stealing my lips only to do it again… yet now… when we supposedly do not need to force it, when it wouldn't be taken as stolen, when I can let him do so without worrying about disrespecting my wishes for it is my wish to receive his caresses… he has decided to push me away so coldly, so dry and distant that my heart stooped to my stomach from regret.
Sadly, now that I think about it, I may have been ignoring it only not to feel as hurt… yet this is not the first time I feel pushed aside… for he has been continuously avoiding any of my caresses and attempts when even our chaperons' sight wouldn't be able to whiteness it.
