you haven't left your house for months years you feel alone not accepted your bed says ITS TIME AGAIN its always been like this you hate everything about about everything but mostly yourself you didn't listen to your bed you looked around your room everything is the same you look outside EVERYTHING IS THE SAME you see all these people having fun with each other don't you want fun like that? oh i know you're just scared but why? you don't know the reason? you try to sleep but is it worth trying? is it worth trying anything at all? when you die anyway. slowly you feel the black shadow behind you its a tickling feeling it touches you it feels weird your body is shaking you cant move. it holds you it keeps you here it wants you here you didn't want to turn around you just walked to your bed and lay down on it. you watch something on tv its your favourite show but is it? you can't share it to anybody because why would they care? they are just strangers on the internet not.. what.. you.. wanted.. you want it to change but you cant change it a little voice says "its okay i'm with you" the outside is dangerous the outside is dangerous your dreams wont help you. you wish to escape from yourself but who are you really? did you feel anything? love does not exist you don't understand the feelings of love. you try to learn but you cant you want to change but you cant something is holding you. yourself? the shadow? the shadow has a red face he smiles he is the only one here or is he? you think you have many friends but they're not its your illusions. everyone changes but you don't and you don't know how you're just lazy so lazy you let all the trash on the floor and tables lazy lazy lazy that's all you are you don't always dream but you wish you can to escape from everything you want to live somewhere else but is it living? or is it dying? i see it you see it.
