Yangyang, still inebriated, continued: "Every time I go home, it's in such a hurry, and before I can even say anything to my parents, I have to leave again. The Spades need me too. I don't dare act cutesy with them, because it would terrify them... You might find it hard to understand the mindset of the wilderness people. To ordinary wilderness folk, the Fire Pit and the Spade members are like gods, no longer family."
"The identity of a Force Field Awakener is like a curse for me, tearing me apart from my family, making me a figure high above. Later, Yan Liuyuan came. He asked me if I wanted to go to the Outer World. At that time, I really wanted to leave there, to shake off others looking at me as a 'Force Field Awakener.' He promised me it wouldn't take long, at most three years, so I agreed."
